Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 31

She has a family? I can't believe this, she had me and left me but she decided to go ahead and have more kids and actually be there for them when she couldn't be there for me. I look at her then to the kids.

"Jessica, please let me just expalin," she begs me. I grab my bag.

"I shouldn't haven't have agreed to this, it was a mistake...You have a family already," i say going to leave but she stops me by grabbing my arm. Justin didn't do anything but stand back, i knew he wanted us to work it out ourselves.

"Please, you have to understnad that after you got taken i didn't know what to do... It's was three years after that accident and i needed to move on, i knew there was no chance in finding you. So i got re-married to Erik, he was a good man and we were together for five years and then Brooke came. We weren't expecting to have a child and when he found out he left...I regret getting re-married but i don't regret Brooke, she gave me a chance at being a mother again," she says looking at the little girl with joy. I look at Brooke and notice some similar things, we both have brown hair and green eyes. She has tanned skin like mine, and a smile that could brighten anyones day even though she was only two.

"I guess i can try it and see how it goes," i whisper setting my bag back down. I felt bad, Brooke would never know what it was like to not have a father, i mean i had one half my life until he turned evil, but i still got a taste of what a dad really was before my other mom died. 

"Thank you Jessica," she say hugging me. I let go of her and look at Justin. "Thanks for walking me over," i whisper as Allison goes over to Brooke and the dogs. He nods.

"I'm only a phone call away babe, and a street down," he says with a grin. I smile and hug him, taking in his warmth and scent. 

"See you tomorrow at school," i say as he walks out.

"Good night Jess," he says before i shut the door. I turn and see Allison holding Brooke and walking over. Brooke smiles at me and points. Allison laughs.

"She likes you already," Allison says. I smile at the little girl.

"Hi Brooke," i say to her in a soft tone. Brooke smiles at me.

"Hugs," She says reaching her little arms out. I am taken back by this, i know she is a kid but i never really been asked to hug someone before. Allison looks at me knowing how i feel about people touching me and all, but i smile and take the little girl into my arms and she wraps her arms around my neck and hugs me.

"Now that is adorable....Oh by the way these two fur balls are Midnight and Shadow," she says petting the two black labs sitting by her feet. I never had dogs before but i've always wanted one and now i get two.

"Love the names," i say setting Brooke down to pet the dogs. Even the dogs like me, wow this is all knew to me.

"They can sense when someone is in pain...Guess they know you have a little still," Allison whispers picking up Brooke. "Well, let me show you to your room," she says as i follow her up the stairs.

"This place is pretty big," i say with a smile. 

"Yeah... Well here is the bathroom which is all yours because i have my own in my room... And this is your room," she says opening a door to a large room that was painted pink and black, my two favorite colors. I smiled and walks in.

"This is perfect, i love it," I say taking everything in. There were pictures up of me when i was a baby, the only ones she must have of me. I smile at some of them, my happy face in my real dads arms. 

"I didn't know what you likes so i went with what my taste kinda was at your age... also sorry if the pictures are to much, i just thought maybe you wanted them, i kept them by my bedside every night for the past seventeen years," she says looking at the picture of the three of us. I suddenly hug her and tear up with happy tears for once.

"Thank you so much mom," i say making her relax and hug back. I actually called her mom, maybe this wasn't going to be so hard after all.

Okay i lied, it was hard. Half way through the night i had a dream about my uncle. I woke up screaming with the two dogs laying next to me. Allison runs in wearing a rob and looks terrified and tired. 

"Jessica, it's alright it was just a dream," She says pulling me into her arms. I push her way, to scared at the moment and go to the bathroom and lock the door. I just need space, time, peace. I need to forget about him, he is gone, he is the past. Why can't i just move on and forget it, oh yeah because he has done way more to me then i told everyone. There's things that i pushed so far back in my mind i was terrified to bring them forward, i didn't want to relive that memory, i didn't want to live at all. 

I stared at myself in the mirror as Allison knocked on the door but i ignored her. I looked at the girl staring back at me, she was looking paler then normal, my hair was a mess, i wasn't anyone. I looked down at my healed wrists, only a few scars left, i know i promised Justin i wouldn't do it anymore, but, i needed to get the pain away, i need to forget and pain was the only way to do that. So i grabbed my razor i packed out of my make up bag and looked at it. 

"Jessica, open the door please baby," Allison shouts in a paniced voice on the other side of the door banging on it. She knows about my self harm, Justin told his mom and i know she had told Allison at some point knowing i would move in and wanted to be looked after correctly. Why does anyone even car? As i sad and debated with myself i let the razor slide across my wrist, only i let it go a little deeper this time. I screamed in pain and dropped the razor to the floor in my own puddle of blood. I slide down the wall and sat there in tears, i never cut that deep before and now i was scared. I picked up my phone and called the only person i knew could help at the time.

"Hello?" the other end said.

"J-Ju--Justin," i said between sobs. Allison must have heard me scream because she was banging harder and shouting. 

"Jessica? Allison called me what is going on?" he said. It was the last thing i heard before darkness took over and i dropped the phone and fell to the ground.

A/N: Made this chapter a little longer since some of you asked for longer chapters :) Also, some of you are confused, so the 'Dad' and the beginning is really her uncle that took her but she didn't know that, she didn't even know she was adopted.. Just to clear that up lol :) So how you all liking the story so far?