Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 34

I walk downt he street with Justin, no one was speaking, it was just silent with the groan in pain from him every now and then. Once we got closer to my house he stopped which makes me stop.

"Justin," I whisper looking down. He just looks at me with a pained expression on his face. 

"You promised," he says back to me in a soft voice. I look up at him with tears in my eyes.

"I know, i know i promised.....But i had a dream and i couldn't handle it... I know i promised i wouldn't ever hurt myself again, but i can't help it, that is the only way i have ever known to get the pain to go away. I've never had someone there to help me, i can't handle it.....I never planned on making it so deep, i was scared. I called oyu because, even though i knew it was going to break your heart, i knew i could trust you, i knew you would come for me.....You are the only hope i have left and i ruined it just like i ruin everything else," i say in a louder voice as i let my emotions run free. He doesn't say anything so i turn to leave.

"Why can't you see that people are trying to help you?" he says in a harsh voice. I stop and look at him.

"Help me? Justin i can't be fixed, i can't be the same girl i used to be a few years ago, i can't be happy, i can't feel love, i can't be normal......I can barely put a smile on my face everyday, now you tell me why you would want this? I can't make promises because i will always end up breaking them, and i don't want to keep hurting people, and i really don't want to hurt you," i shout as it starts raining. I let tears fall freely now since i was soaked anyways. Justin shakes his head.

"Do you hear yourself? You are putting these ideas in your head that you will never be able to live a happy life again, you're setting yourself up for faliure, why can't you let someone in, someone that can make your life happy again," he shouts back.  With all the yelling and emotion i didn't realize i had moved closer to him so we were about a foot apart and due to the rain we were both dripping wet. 

"Because......I let them in, they hate me, or they leave me......I already broke a rule i made....Never to fall in love, but i let you break my walls for once and look where it has got me....I hurt you," i say realizing i just admitted i was in love with him. I look away from him, to shocked at myself to speak another word. 

"You think i hate you?" he whispers. I didn't even have time to respond because he had his lips on mine in seconds and was holding me close. I kissed back and relaxed into his hold. He pulled back first because we were both out of breath. That was like a movie scene, where the boy and girl kissing in the pouring rain, cheesy i know but hey i always wanted that.

"I can't hurt you again," i whisper still in his hold. He looks down at me and moves some wet hair out of my face.

"I love you too," he says making me stare at him in complete shock. Justin Bieber, the boy everyone thought was a bad kid just admitted he was in love with me. Oh dear goodness i can't breath right now. I smile at him and wrap my arms around him.

"I can't promise i won't do it again, but i will promise to try not to anymore," i tell him. He smiles at me.

"That's all i need," he says as we keep walking toward my house.

When we get to my place i forgot i sneeked out the window.

"Oh crap," i say as we stand on the front deck out of the rain.

"what?" Justin says leaning on the house for support. I look at him.

"I climbed out the window," I say as i face palm trying to think. Justin laughs a little and looked at the door.

"Justin knock," he say with a shrug. I look at him like he is crazy.

"No way, i will wake Allison and Brooke," i say freaking out. Justin smiles.

"THey already seen us," he says pointing to the window where Allison was looking. I wave her over to open the front door. She opens it holding Brooke.

"Sneeking out already.....whoa, what happened to you two?" she says letting us pass her. I help Justin up the stairs.

"Um, nothing major just go to work and everything will be fine," i shout back as i close my room door and lock it. Justin lays on my bed. I walk over and he sits up and holds my face in his hands looking at the new bruise that is probably there from being slapped.

"I swear i will murder him next time i lay my eyes on him," he say a little upset as he looks at the bruise. I pull away and shake my head.

"I'm fine, but let's see the damage on you," i say backing up. He slowly takes his shirt off, which makes my heart raace when he reveals his bare stomach which is like a freaking eight pack. I was so focused on him that i didn't see him smirk.

"Stop checking me out and play nurse," he says in a playful tone. My cheeks heat up and i walk over and examin the bruises on his sides and stomach. I poke one and he hisses in pain and glares at me. I smile innocently.

"Sorry i was just seeing how bad they were," i say standing up. "I'll go get some ice for them," i say as i go to leave, but he grabs my arm and pulls me into him.

"I don't need ice for pain...I need you," he says wrapping his arms around me. I smile and lean down and place a soft kiss on his lips and lay down with him. We are alying chest to chest, just staring at each other. This moment is when i realized something, I really do love this boy with all my heart. I smile.

"What's witht the smile," He whispers pulling me closer. 

"Nothing, i am just happy for once, here with you," i say with a smile. He smiles and kisses me as we slowly both drift off to sleep. But, i have a feeling in the morning i will regret standing out in the rain.