Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 38

Why do things always fall apart just when i think something is going right on my life? I can't just be happy for once and enjoy what i have without my past coming back to haunt me. I didn't bother calling Layla or anyone before i left, i didn't want to, i decided my choice. No one would even notice if i went missing, theyw ould think i was just taking a break, right? 

It's been almost four hours since i left and i was now sitting on the dock out by the lake. Just sitting on the edge with my feet in the water, it's peaceful, quiet, calm. I liked coming out here to think when i was little, never going into the water because....well, i can't swim, no one ever taught me, i sink like a rock. This lake actually isn't far from my house, only like three minute walk, but not a lot of people know about it, Layla does but she would never think to look here since she knows i can't swim and i was afraid of falling in. I was snapped out of my thoughts when my phone starts ringing. I jump a little and pick it up without looking. 

"Hello?" i say watching the fish swim at the surface of the deep lake. It was actually the deepest lake in the state, only a tiny shallow spot then a deep drop off for the rest of the lake.

"Jessica, where are you?" Zack says. I was surprised it was Zack, on Layla's phone.

"why are you on Layla's phone?" i asked swinging my feet in the water.

"She is like having a break down trying to find you...That's not important tho, where are you?" he repeats again with all seriousness.  I sigh and look out on the lake, no one was out on it today, so the water was still.

"I'm being honest here Zack, i don't want to be found, okay... I want to be alone," I say trying not to cry.

"If this is about Justin, he told me already. He called me as soon as it happened, he felt terrible and didn't mean to snap," He says.

"I told him one little thing that happened and he flipped out, think if i told him all the times i have been hurt... He could hurt me Zack," i whisper as my voice cracks.

"Jessica, trust me, he would never hurt you in a million years. In fact he would take a bullet for you.... He just didn't know how to handle it all, he didn't mean to throw the glass or yell at you....I cant tell you that he is standing next to me pacing and going crazy trying to find you," he says and i can hear Justin curse at him.

"He won't be able to handle everything, all my stories or seeing my scars... If he was angry this time i can't handle the next time," I say standting up on the dock and leaning on the railing.

"He will, please he is going to kill me if he doesn't find you," he says and i hear people fighting over the phone.

"Jessica where are you?" Justin says over the phone. I sigh.

"Justin, please just calm down... Zack doesn't need your anger right now... I need space, i can't keep doing this, you getting angry everytime i tell you something," i whisper.

"I wasn't mad at you Jess, i was mad at your Uncle for doing this to you.. I wanted to murder him when you told me and my mind was focused on that and not you, i'm sorry. I swear i will do anything to make it up to you, i can't lose you," he whispers back to me. I sigh and turn around to walk back to the beach area and see someone i didn't think i would see again.

"Fancy meeting you here love," Andrew says with a smirk as he walks onto the dock. The dock is a good twenty feet long so i was out pretty far and had some time to think.

"Who the heck is that Jessica?" Justin says in a worried tone. 

"I....Andrew what are you doing here?" i say putting the phone on the post where it is still on speaker. Andrew smiles and keeps walking toward me.

"Nice lake right? Good place to think," He says casually walking closer and closer. I back up by back hits the railing that is seprating the lake and me.

"I thought Rylee told you what would happen if you came around again?" i said remembering how scared of Rylee they were. Andrew laughs.

"Rylee...Yeah he did, but he isn't in town right now, he took a trip to see some friends accourding to his facebook.. And by the time he comes back i'll be gona already," he says witha  shrug as he is already only ten feet away from me. My heart was racing, there's no where to run.

"What do you want from me? I didn't do anything to you," i say trying to stay calm and my byself some time to think so a way out of this. 

"Not from you sweetheart, your boyfriend though. He owes us some money, seems he has some secrets he is keeping from you. But i think we can make an agreement since you came around," He says now only five feet away from me. 

"I don't have anything for you, now please leave," i says to him still keeping as calm as i can at this point and time.

"You are his one weak spot i have noticed, he does anything for you... He would let his gaurd down if something was to happen to his percious girlfriend," he says now standing right in front of me. I hold my breath and look away from him. He grabs my face and makes me look at him.

"Let go," i whisper to him and try pushing him back but he grabs my arms.

"Now, why do you have to put up a fight everytime," he says pushing me so my back hits the railing and i fall over it. I hit the ice cold water and panic starts to set in. I can't swim, i can't swim at all. I struggle to stay above water but my attempts all fail. I start sinking, i can see the sun in the reflection, and Andrew watching as i sink. I was going to die now, drownding was my biggest fear and now it is happening. I could feel the water burning my lungs, as i got closer to the bottom of the lake. Just like i wanted right, to leave the world.