Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 75

"Jess, put it down," Justin says from the bathroom doorway. I look at him then at my hands. I drop the razor and back up until my back hits the bathroom wall. What was i doing, what came over me? I didn't even realize what i was doing, i almost threw away everything i have been working on changing. 

"I....I.." i couldn't speak as tears started with run down my cheeks. Justin cautiously walked over to me and pulled me into his chest and smoothed out my hair as he kissed my forehead. His heart was racing, he was scared too. 

"I don't know what i was doing....I was just thinking and i didn't realize what i was doing......I'm so stupid," I say as more tears flow and i hug Justin tighter. He keeps smoothing my hair out as we stand there.

"Everything is going to be alright Jess, i promise," he says as he slowly leads us to the bed and we lay down. We lay there, both close, my head on his chest listening to the calming rythem of his heart beat now that is has returned to it's normal pace. It's a sweet song that slowly drifts me into a peacful slumber.

I wake up to the sound of shouting. I sit up and realize Justin isn't in bed and the yelling is coming from downstairs in the front yard. I yawn and get up, jumping a little when my bare feet come in contact with the cold wood floors. Before going to see what the shouting is all about, i walk across the hall to the twins room, they were both sound asleep still, Lexi was laying in the middle of the room, an equal distance from each bed. I smiled, she was already a great dog only after one day here. After making sure the twins were alright i made my way downstairs where Layla was standing in the living room looking out the window, i walked past her and to the door where Zack was standing between Justin and my "Dad".

"YOu don't deserve to talk to her anymore...You ruined the one good thing left of her family...You made her want to kill herself last night," Justin shouts as Zack pushes him back a little.

"Justin man, calm down a little," Zack says trying to gain control of the situation. They haven't even seen me standing in the doorway yet. 

"You don't think it kills me, i have to live with the fact i made that choice. I made it so Brooke didn't have to suffer," dad says, but it was clear he didn't mean it.

"Bullshit!" Justin says with anger. He loved Brooke like he loves Jazzy, he was taking it hard to even if he didn't show it last night.

"What do you know.....You aren't even out of the teen stage yet," dad shouts back.

"At least i love my kids!" Justin snaps back making my dad finally snap and shove him. I finally step in and pull Justin back.

"Don't you dare tell me i don't love my kid...I did what was best for her...." dad says looking at Me. 

"You need to leave," I whisper to him as i pull Justin toward the house.

"Jessica, we are family...Don't shut me out," he begs me but Zack makes it so he can't follow us.

"We aren't family...The only thing we shared was Brooke...Now you are nothing to me anymore, you choose to let her go, you never asked me if I was alright with it, you never asked her if she was okay with it. You took her life without even asking her first... You didn't look at her when those doctors walked in, you didn't see the fear and pain in her eyes like i did....She had her whole life, her whole life to be anything she wanted, to grow up with people who loved and cared about her, and you just took it away," I say holding back tears as we slowly back into the house.

"Jessica, don't do this...You need family," he says with pain.

"I have a family, i have my boyfriend, my babies, and my friends. They are my family, not you," i say as we all go inside and leave him.

"Jess," Layla says hugging me. I let the tears flow now before i even realize Justin was bleeding. I panic and look at him. Looks like they got into a fight before i even got there. He had a bloody lip and bruised cheek.

"Come on," i say pulling him upstairs to out bathroom. He leans on the bathroom counter as i wet a wash cloth and hold it to his cheek.

"Brooke didn't deserve this," He finally says letting some emotion out. I nod and keep wiping the blood of his face.

"I know, she didn't...But what's done is done.... We need to stay strong and do this for Brooke. She wanted to watch the twins grow up happy, that's what we can do," i say making him look into my eyes.

"My mom could have helped pay the bills....We could have helped her," he says getting mad again. I can tell he isn't thinking clearly right now with all his built up emotions.

"Justin calm down," i whisper as he throws the wash cloth down and runs a hand through his hair.

"Could hace flipping helped her," he says as he turns around and punches the glass mirror causing it to crack. I jump a little at the sound, then Lexi starts barking causing the babies to wake and cry. I hear Zack's footsteps coming down the hall.

"What happened?" he says walking in out of breath. I look at Justin and just see tha pain in his eyes, this was really getting him, and i wanted to know why.

"Zack," i say as i leave the room signaling him to handle Justin while i take care of the twins, But layla already had them calmed down by the time i got there.

"Thanks Layla," I say as we walk into the hall.

"You're welcome...Hey, it gets better i promise," she says hugging me. I hug her back carefully because she is due any day now.

"Alright, we are going to stay the night i guess...He is calmed down but i just want to be sure," Zack says as we go down to the living room and sit.

"Why is he so upset all of a sudden?" i asked confused.

"It all goes back to his dad......That's a story no knows, he won't talk about it so i leave it alone... Don't push him, he will tell you if he wants but don't plan on it... I've met his dad like three times and that is it, and that's when we were little and his parents lived together still," Zack says as he kisses Layla's hand.

So something about his past with his dad that no know has ever met except Zack a few times. I want to know what is up, maybe i need to make a trip to see Pattie.