Hold Tight (A Justin Bieber Love Story) ((BEING EDITED))

Chapter 32

I opened my eyes and was blinded by light. I groaned and closed them again hoping the light would leave. I heard movement and whispers in the room. Where was i anyways, last i check Allison didn't have lights this bright in her house. I opened my eyes again and waited for my eyes to adjust to the lighting and realized i was in a hospital room. I quickly sat up and seen Allison talking to Layla. 

"Why am i here?" I asked confused, last time i checked i was in the bathroom at Allison's. Then it hit me, the razor, the blood, the phone call. Allison walks over with a sad look.

"Oh Jessica, we thought we were going to lose you. You lost so much blood, i was scared," she says hugging me. A nurse walks in.

"Allison, may i speak to you please," She asked with a kind smile. Allison nods and leaves the room, it was only Layla and me now. She walks over and slaps my arm. 

"Ouch!" i say rubbing the spot she hit me.

"Are you stupid! You could have died. What happened to you weren't going to do that anymore," she asked in a pained voice. I sigh and look away.

"Where's Justin?" i whispered knowing he was the one i called. Layla looks torn, but lets out a sigh.

"Zack is out looking for him.. He got a blood transfusion so you could have some blood that you lost, then he totally left. He was so mad and upset," She says looking at me. wait Justin gave blood for me, but he nates needles.

"Why is he mad?" i say confused. Layla looks at me like i'm on drugs or something.

"Are you serious? He said something about some promise you made and you broke it and now he is blaming himself and went on a freaking anger strike toward the nurses, even Zack. I don't think he has ever been so upset in his life... So Zack went to find him because who knows what will happen when Justin is like this," she says in frustration. I let a tear fall, i broke that promise, i broke his heart.

After awhile Allison and i head home, i was released but under strict directions to stay in bed. Basically they have me under suicide watch because they think i am crazy and all that good stuff, well i can tell you something, this time scared me with the pain so i don't think i will be doing it again that deep anytime soon. Allison was watching me like a hawk as i moved around the house. Brooke was asleep since it was only 5 in the morning when we got back from the hospital. Since i wasn;t going anywhere i decided to make a few calls.

"Hello?" Pattie's voice says over the phone.

"Pattie, is Justin there? He won't pick up his phone," i say and can here her sigh.

"Sorry sweetie, he has been gone all morning since he got your phone call....How are you feeling dear," she asked in a concerned mother tone. I really do love Pattie, she is like another mom to me.

"I've been better. I just was checking if Justin was around. I will let you go now," i say with my own sigh.

"Alright hun, hope you feel better," she says before hanging up. I make my next call and hope for some anwsers.

"Hello?" Zack says sounding tired.

"Zack, its Jessica," i say not knowing if he has my number or not. He laughs a little.

"I have caller ID Jess... What's up?" he asked.

"Umm, well Layla told me about Justin getting upset. I was just wondering if you found him yet?" i asked in a worried tone.

"Not yet, i have been looking since he left the hospital. I am getting a little worried, he usually doesn't go completely missing like this, he normal turns up at someone's house and crashes there," he say in a concerned voice which isn't often for Zack. I let out a frustrated groan and lay on my bed.

"This is all my fault. I should have never promised him this, i only hurt him and me in the process," i say holding back tears.

"Come on Jess, we both know this isn't your fault. Justin just cares about you and doesn't know how to handle these things. He probably is blaming himself by the sounds of it at the hospital. He was freaking out and practicly forced the nurse to take his blood to give to you," he say with a small chuckle. I smile a little, he would do such a thing for me.

"Well, when you find him please let know right away so i know he is okay," i say sitting up again.

"You will be the first to know, well second because i promised his mother already," he say with laugh.

"Alright thank you Zack," i say before hanging up and laying on the bed. 

After about an hour i was getting paranoid and tired of waiting for a call from Zack. It was now 6am and i knew Allison would be back to sleep by now. I slipped one a hoodie and yoga pants and ugg boots and pulled my hair into a messy pony tail. I can't believe i am doing this. I softly walked out into the hall and seen the dogs laying there, no way would i get past them without waking Allison. I turned and went back in my room and looked at my window.

Not even five minutes later i was on the ground and looking up, that was a long climb down and hurt my wrist but of well. I ran around the side fo the house and down the street. It was still dark out and a little cold this early in the morning, but i was worried about Justin so i don't care. I walked down the street that goes into downstown, which was small, not big. There was no one, and only one or two lights that lite the street. I walked looking around for Justin everywhere. 

I passed an alley where i heard some guys talking and fighting with each other, well more like there were five guys fighting one guy. I rolled my eyes and kept walking but then i heard a familiar voice that made me freeze and step back to see downt he alley just as Justin got a fist to the stomach. I gasp as he hunched over in pain. The five guys laughed and kept taking shots at him.

"Hey," i said walking closer making them all, even Justin, look over at me. The look in Justin's eye told me i just made the worst mistake of my life.