Goodnight, love

Monsters in the Dark

Under the starless night,
I stroll alone,
A blind warrior,
A traveler with no spear.

Sometimes I wish all of it would light up,
That I remove my mask,
Forget the feeling of a lost child,
And smile like I used to before.

But most of the time I think it's better this way,
That in the dark I could feel like I'm a hero,
Sucking in all the madness in this world,
But that'd never be true.

For I'm just a random warrior,
Who's enemies are looming,
Who's spear is shattered in half,
Nothing unique about that.

A girl standing in the shadows,
Ordered to follow the owner,
Like a dog in a game of fetch,
I can't resist.

I'm a prisoner in a game of torture,
A game which aim to make me bleed,
As much as I try not to,
I always end up bruised.

Some nights I go to bed,
I dream of waking up,
To the sun's raise by the window,
Never to darken again.

But dream I might, it'd never happen,
No dreams turns into reality,
No dreams come to life,
For I am a fallen soldier and I can no longer run.

A fallen soldier who stands alone,
Who no one would help,
Who's ammos are lessening,
Who was fighting a losing war.

I wish that maybe my dreams could reach the stars,
That I could win this war and reach them,
But this won't happen now,
For the stars are gone.

I feel that they're not coming back,
For what I used to be,
What I am today,
And what I'll be.

I think that they'd leave the lost child,
Let that child's sanity disappear,
Their innocence fade,
And their souls combust.

I fear that one day,
When I wake up in the middle of the night,
The child inside my ice cold heart,
Would stop breathing.

And I'd be forced to travel this path as a monster,
Chaining people down,
Slicing their heads off,
Like what they did to that child.

That I'd become a sociopath,
And choose to kill everybody,
Break all the children,
For my own good.

I fear that maybe one day,
I could no longer feel,
That I'd stop loving you,
And you'd shatter into a billion pieces.

I fear that maybe it's starting,
Maybe my feelings are starting to disappear,
Maybe I'm too blind already,
To pick all of you up and piece you back together.

But that can't be,
For I promised to love you,
Never leave you,
And fight your demons for you.

I obliged to be your puppet,
And your puppet I shall be,
I shall smile and dance for you,
Do everything as you'd like me to.

But I fear that maybe one day you'd get tired,
And discard me all away,
And I'd be walking this lonely road all over again,
Alone.

Sometimes I thought that maybe,
We shouldn't have met each other,
Because I'm afraid that you'd shatter me,
Because I'm such a coward.

But I know you've felt the same pain,
And I shall set you free,
And see if you'd do what I fear,
But I'll never do it to you.

One more crack in my already broken heart,
Would never matter,
One more pain in the smile I wear,
Wouldn't really make a difference.

So it's okay if you break me,
For I know your tired of being broken,
I'm a child I have yet to feel it,
And you've had enough.

I'm a monster no one could love,
I'm Frankenstein,
My tortured soul visible through my armor,
But I'll try to save you.

Kind person,
I'll help you cross,
This river of madness,
And let fate drown me in it.

But it's okay,
As long as your fine,
I wish to have my smile returned,
But I desire yours to come back.

It's okay if you forget about me,
Everybody will anyways,
I'm just a mere girl behind a person,
Hiding by the shadows.

Sometimes I wonder if someone would see me,
If they'd love me like you do,
But so far you and my fellow shadows are the only ones,
And I'd love you too.

Even if you stopped,
I'd continue to defeat your demons,
I'll be your shield,
Battered or not.

I'd do anything to stop you from crying,
I'd do anything to remove your demons,
And put them into me,
Set you free.

So that you could be the free dove,
And I'll be the chained Raven,
I wouldn't stop you from flying,
Free bird.

I'd do anything to make you smile for yourself,
Not for me,
Not for the others,
But you.

I'd dive for you if you're drowning,
I'd do anything to release you from your misery,
Because you've had enough,
More than one should have.

Slit my wrists,
And I swear to die,
For you,
For your happiness. 

Anything for you, kid,
Anything to brighten your world,
Anything to prevent you from being me,
Anything stop you from being Dr. Hyde.

But I'd love you even then,
Frankenstein and Dr. Hyde,
Monster heart monster,
Nothing different there.

You and I under the darkened sky,
I'll always be there for you, child,
Even if you don't want me to,
I'll stay and fight just for you.

Till your sun shines,
And mine forever fades,
I'll love you,
Till the end.