Goodnight, love

Demons

I walk the road,
Vendors shouting,
Children smiling,
The world spun around as it did.

Not caring,
Not minding,
Continuously spinning,
As I looked around broken.

But I smiled,
I matched my face to the splendor,
Of the old London streets,
The smiling mass.

I reached for the sky,
Like I used to,
As if it was your hand,
And the time was way back then.

People stared at me,
In my tattered Victorian dress,
Like my corset is exposed,
Seems like so.

Like my heart,
My tattered dress was a warrior,
Worn and old,
From the battles it fought hard.

The corset was the love,
I fought so hard for,
Caked with blood,
From the arrows it took for you.

The gashes it received,
The dripping wounds,
The blood spilled,
Didn't matter to you, little did I know.

I looked up at the old clock tower,
Thinking thoughtfully,
About the time we spent together,
And the days past you taught me how to dance.

How to dance around broken glass,
How to paint my smiles,
How not to get cut,
And how to mend myself.

Then I was your Cinderella,
Then you were my prince,
But you turned into an evil wizard,
And you stabbed a shard to me.

Searing hot,
Painful,
Sharp,
Little glass.

That I wasn't able to dodge,
You thought me how to dance,
But not how to dodge,
Then I knew that I was part of your game.

Your little game of dares,
The knives you threw at me,
The bullets you made me aim,
The arrows you made me take for you.

It was all part of your sick little game,
A game in which you get to win,
And slay everybody,
Everybody all around you.

Everything is not what it seems,
You stood with your pretty tailcoat,
Your impeccable manner,
But it was all a lie.

You stole them,
Along with my heart,
This lie,
Was not real at all.

I fell for a monster,
Not a sire,
A liar,
Not a die heart.

I fell for coal,
Not diamond,
Lead not gold,
Dust not silver.

A worthless fool,
Not a fierce warrior,
An impaler, an executioner,
Not a hero.

Its sad how I called you mine,
How you called me yours,
But we're not each other's,
We're not anyone's.

I'm my own,
And you are yours,
I'm foolish enough to fall for you,
Even more foolish to believe. 

That behind that kind smile,
Was a mischievous killer,
Holding a trigger,
Read to aim.

Then you pushed the trigger,
A shot aimed, Resonating,
What was once impossible,
Deemed possible.

My heart cracked,
Pieces exploding far beyond reach,
Too sharp to pick up,
But I pick them up nonetheless.

Hand dripping blood,
New wounds sliced open,
Heart dripping hate,
Thoughts driven into madness.

You created me into this,
This disgusting monster,
One with no heart,
One who would dare to hold a gun.

I shot and aim,
For your heart,
I broke it into pieces,
As you did to mine.

You turned me into this,
An angel with no heart,
A demon who is not dark enough,
A broken warrior all together.

You and I,
Were never each other's,
Like I thought,
Like I hoped.

People would betray people,
Kill them if they should,
Like what you did to me,
I'm no longer what I used to be.

I'm not the girl with little pigtails,
I'm not the girl who believed in things,
I'm the demon who shattered you,
And a liar behind a false mask.

Thanks,
Really,
For showing the demon,
Living inside of me.

One that was meant to deceive,
Devour,
Endure,
Conquer.

Conquer upon all,
I am the dragon,
In the fiery pits of nightmare,
And I've found the pieces of my heart.

Thank you for the twisted lessons,
And the twisted love,
The twisted days we've had,
Forever encoded in twisted memories.

Thank you for proving to us,
That here's black in white skies,
White in the night skies,
And that there are demons in all of us.

Lurking,
Hiding,
Far beyond reach,
But there're demons out to change us.