Goodnight, love

Masked Warrior

The city was had a blackout,
The city was painted in black,
It was also a starless night,
And the moon was no where to be found.

I held my slowly breaking metal heart,
Watch as the cogs and screws,
Fall out,
Never fixed.

The house of that once innocent little girl,
Was being trashed apart,
She's lost and broken,
And sometimes I fear that she'd never come back.

But it's okay,
I'll stay strong,
Try to be who I can't be,
To be what they think of me as.

I'll smile,
And pretended that my armor is not broken,
And fight this losing war,
Even if it's killing me inside.

A metal heart is still a heart,
It'd break somehow,
It'll fall apart somehow,
But I'd never let it show.

I'd continue shining,
Smiling,
Pretending that nothing,
Ever happened.

Since that's what I'm good at,
Putting on masks,
Following the rules,
Meeting people's expectations.

Never let them see who I really am,
Try to outshine their starless nights,
But deep down I am  not a hero,
Even if I try my hardest, I'd never win.

Because I'm a loser,
I'm not a warrior,
Not a hero,
I could never save them.

How foolish could I have been,
To think that I could be stronger that their demons,
Stronger than their nightmares,
While I couldn't defeat mine.

Some nights,
I lay crying,
Lulling myself to sleep,
Only to wake up under the same dark night.

Sorry, loves,
I can't help you,
I can't be stronger,
I never will.

Sorry I never met your expectations,
Wasn't able to light your darkens hallways,
Never made you guys smile,
Never made you realize how I love you all.

Sorry for not selling my heart,
Not selling my soul,
For not selling who I am,
And sorry that you saw my dying light.

But I'll smile for you guys,
I'll smile for you, pan,
I'll make all of you happy,
Even when I can't.

I'd put on my strong suit,
Put on my armor,
Put on my smug smirk,
I would fight for you guys.

Through mountains,
Through Titans,
Through gladiators,
And everything in between.

Some day,
I know you'll leave,
Because just like everything,
People come and go.

Just so you know,
Guys I'll miss you,
Pan, I'll never leave you,
And I had always loved you all.

Memories of you,
Memories of us,
Forever trapped dancing,
In my broken heart.

I'll lay there never forgetting,
How the wooden stake,
Passed through my heart,
How it made my heart bleed.

But I'll smile,
Put on my armor,
And pretend that everything's fine,
For you.

I'd love you guys forever,
I'd do anything for you guys always,
To the day I die,
And the days after that.

It easy to say "I'll never forget you",
But I know that you'd forget me someday,
I'm pretty easy to forget,
But I'd still love you guys then.

Because I'm a pretend warrior,
With a chained heart,
And a locked soul,
But I'll stay the same.

Till the stars and moons collide,
In a wild rupture of fire and lights,
I'd love you guys then,
I'd love you guys forever.