Goodnight, love

Catching the Stars

I'm a monster,
A demon of sorts,
I kill those things that kill me,
And no matter how much I die, I'm still alive.

Yellow vivid eyes,
With claws that could cut,
I walk amongst people,
But most of them still stare at me.

They'd stop and tell me how different I was,
How much I have to change,
How much I should change,
But even if I tried my hardest nothing happens.

I wait on the stars to explode,
Maybe they could drop me particles of their stardust,
And maybe  they could change me,
To the human I could be.

I had wished on every shooting stars that had passed by,
That they'd pass me by,
Color my skies,
And turn me into something different entirely.

And tonight,
I wised at the exploding stars,
Supernova explosions,
Like fire in the sky.

It turned the whole sky bright,
And for a second,
I thought that maybe everything would come to an end,
And everything would be okay.

So I closed my eyes,
As I put my head up to the sky,
And I wished my deepest desires,
And I wished upon the fires.

One day I'd have bright eyes,
Ones that would help me see,
Help others see,
That there's a chance.

One day I'd lose my sharp claws,
Lose all the hate in me,
The pain that hurts me much more,
Than it hurts others.

One day I'd be human,
Just as everyone is,
With wrongs and rights,
But mostly it's not what they care about.

I want to stand up to touch the skies,
To hold my wishes in my hands,
Until it burns,
And I'd never let go.

One day my blood will spill,
For people I love,
And they'd bask in it,
And I'll be happy.

One day I'd want to meet you,
A boy with bright blue eyes,
Lips filled with hope,
And a heart full of dreams.

One day I'd be big,
Big enough so no one could beat me,
I'll be taller than buildings,
And I'll be fighting for everybody.

One day I'd close my eyes,
And wish for the sun to light the sky,
And it'll end,
End the misery of tonight.

One day I hope everything would come true,
Bright sun and dark moons,
Fire would burn in the furnace,
All together we will be.

Our hearts would be fine,
Connected like constellations,
All the shooting stars passing us by,
And there'd be nothing to worry.

And it's starts tonight,
The night I'll always remember,
The night that turns to day,
The night that scares my demons away.

And so tonight I fly my kite,
Among the brining flowers in the sky,
Hoping it'd take my wishes away,
Hoping I can do it within the day.

I let go of my kite that late night,
People would look,
Oh how strange it'd be!
A kite lost by a child, they'd think.

But no,
It'd be by me,
Hoping that one day it'd reach the skies,
And catch the stars for me.

So tonight I close my eyes,
For tomorrow would be a busy day,
I'll be on my way,
To the journey beyond me.

[A/N Disclaimer: Photos on my poems so far aren't mine. Now you know.]