So I stood there, Watching currents swarm around me, In forms of voices, Of those that I've hurt.
Watch as the last pieces of them, Sink down and fade away, As I stood there, With a cruel smirk on my face.
I never thought that all of this was mine, Never thought that all of this was done by me, Never thought that I could be selfish, Thought that I was kind.
They said that there's kindness in all of us, So sir, Tell me why, Tell me why I couldn't find mine.
Tell me why I couldn't save them, Tell me why I never really cared, Tell me why I don't have the heart, Tell me why I didn't feel anything when they drowned.
The earth is a stage, So tell me great puppeteer, Are they enjoying this? Are they laughing now?
For I didn't feel pain, As tears streamed down my cheeks, As I smiled, When everything failed.
My once glorious sanity, Now broken, Discarded, No where to be seen.
Little bits and pieces of it, What's whit is now black, What was fine are now rocks, They're scattered and I don't think I'll be able to keep them.
I thought I was selfless, I thought I was there for them, Maybe I didn't shine enough? Maybe I wasn't strong enough?
I'm useless, I know, I prayed, Or I used to, Because prayers never work, child.
They say that the puppeteer, The one unseen, The one without any proof nor evidence, Has a great choreography for us.
Said that he'd lead us to the greatest dance, If we chose to follow, Does it really? Will it really?
I don't think anything is ever real enough, If he was real, Then had he let me turn into this? Why'd he let them die?
Days and days, I've yelled for them to be fine, I strived for stars, And the fading sun.
I tried to chase them, But nothing happened, Said that he has a greater plan for us, Child, do you really believe that?
Tell tales, And stories, Didn't your father teach you, That folks and lores stay as it is?
Maybe it was a merciful thing, That they have died, That they didn't see me crumble, And because I'm too ashamed to face them.
But though, Sometimes, I wish they would've stayed, Maybe I wouldn't have lost me.
I yelled, To the fading sun, To make them come back, To no avail.
Wise man, Tell me how, Tell me how I'd stay strong, Tell me how I'd pick myself up again.
Tell me how I'd stop crying, For what's done, For not being able to save them, For being weak.
Wise man? Are you there? Supposedly not, Because I'm this world I'm all alone.
In this dark void, I'm drowning, In the starless skies, I'm blind.
But it's fine, I've been alone for long, no? I've stayed strong for long, no? No..
Some nights, I held a dagger to my throat, Swallowing hard, And the only strings that're holding me down are gone.
Now.., Who am I? And what do I live for? Why am I living??
I don't know, My heart is numb, My eyes are bleary, And I don't think my soul belongs to me.
I'm a living corps, Empty, Heartless, And I don't even belong here.
So once more I yelled up to the heavens, To whatever's up above, To what I've been forced to believe in, To the puppeteer.
"Goodbye, my friend!" I yelled, "I'll be joining them, We'll be one, My death not do us part!"
And so I stretched my arms out, My chests aching, From all the crying, And from all the yelling.
From chasing and panting, For being selfish, For being cruel, Maybe it's time to rest.
I closed my eyes, And I whispered to the fading sun, "I hate you, I hate you as much as I love you."
"For those nights that you've lit, For the light that you've given, The way you pushed the stars away, For taking them away from me," I whispered with my last breaths.
The kraken is on the line of my vision, It came closer, Breaking through rocks, And the fast current.
I stretched my arms even wider, I closed my eyes, And I sigh deeply, Thinking not of the inevitable doom.
Thinking instead of how we'd play in the gardens again, How we'd hug each other again, How we'd watch the stars pass by, How I'd be myself again.
The kraken had me in its tentacles, 'Oh boy, tentacle porn,' I thought sarcastically, And mustered a playful smirk, 'Fuck me hard, honey.'
The kraken tossed me in his mouth, 'Take me away, to the land far beyond' I thought, As my bones were crushed, And I was never to wake up again.
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