Goodnight, love

Life and death

There was never really a goodbye,
Only a see you next time,
See you again,
See you next time.

But sometimes,
Those times never comes,
Then your "see you next time" extends,
Maybe to a "see you never".

Not able to cross the bridge,
Separated from one another,
Prevented from being one,
From being together.

As wind blows,
And centuries pass by,
We're still damned,
Not together.

For you're life and I'm death,
The contrast to everything,
I'm the problem you're the light,
The one who lights me up.

Your power shimmering brightly,
Lighting up the darkest nights,
That's why people like you better,
A beautiful lie. 

As I grip the humans soul,
You kiss it goodbye,
With the message it's containing,
One I awaited.

Souls who roam,
Who roams between us,
Are the only connection,
We will ever have.

As days pass by,
As nights draw longer,
I wish and hope,
For the streams to dry up.

That we could finally be together,
Cross the brigade of ever after,
Never look back to now,
Just a time where we held our heads up high.

I push the thoughts down every time,
And every time a dagger pushes down trough me,
Slowing the beat of my heart,
Killing me inside.

Death is vast and hollow,
Deep and never ending,
You're the light that souls hang on to,
The treasure that people would keep.

Keep because you're precious,
Because once you're gone you may never come back,
Because at the end I'll be waiting,
Across my face is a cold dark smile.

A smile that says "why live if you're going to die?",
A smile that secretly tells about my demons,
The creatures that roam inside me,
The dark vacuum I am inside.

But you still loved me nonetheless,
Never leaving me ever,
Even if we were one stream apart,
But we've been here for histories.

Together for each other,
Longer than time,
Because we are time itself,
And we will always be.

You're the torch to my cave,
The goddess to my demons,
The heart to my heartless soul,
A person who would love me no matter what.

You didn't care about the demons,
You didn't care that they're dangerous,
You still placed on your armor,
And braced your self for a fight.

You'd don't care that life was getting dirtied,
That sin and darkness was spreading trough,
Somehow you knew this way ahead,
And you still didn't care.

You didn't care how far I really am,
You didn't care about my haunted past,
But as you said, "only now matters",
That the past is the past, and it's never coming back.

You led me through a dark dwindling path,
Until that I was sure that we had crossed it,
The division,
The stream dividing us.

But seeing the destruction,
The commotion that happened with everything in between,
It's better to stay away,
So I reverted back to the other side.

You said that you didn't love me anymore,
And I said that you're not worth loving at all,
But I'm a liar and you knew,
You knew it wasn't true.

I tuned my back away from you,
Saying that I don't wanna see you,
But my heart cracks at every sound of your sobs,
And I cry along.

With every tear I want to die,
With every tear I wish for you to be happy,
With every tear I wish for time to go back,
But the past is the past, and it's never coming back.

As days passed,
Completing another eternity,
My old self came back, darker,
With no one to help it.

As an eternity came to pass,
I wonder if you will miss me,
Remember me not for what I am,
But what I used to be.

As I remove this mask,
And showed you who I really am,
I ponder in deep dark thoughts,
Deep down would you still love me??

Would you still love me even when I'm ugly??
Nothing but a skeleton with a beating heart,
A heart that will always long for you,
Forever.

I would want to know your answer,
But it's only me all alone now,
Here to rule the world
Never ending.

I take it as a no then,
But still thank you for all the things that we've shared,
It's darker without you,
But it's okay.

After all,
It's only me here,
I'm the only one,
Mourning for everyone's death.

Everyone close to me,
Memories of them killing me inside,
And memories of how their deaths happened,
But it's okay, it'll always be.