I cry myself to sleep at night, Teardrops of constellations forming on my cheeks every time, Like ones in the dark sky, Merely passing by.
I dream of becoming one of them, One of you, A fiery bird of some sort, But they never leave me alone.
Frail birds fly into different nest, While shooting stars stay in the same sky every night, I caught a jar of you last night, So small yet so bright.
I didn't cry that night, My room was lit in blazing fiery blue, The monsters weren't coming for me, For I have you.
You held my hands every time I trembled in fear, Telling me to quiet down, And steady my breathing, And taught me to fly away like all stars do.
You told me you were never going to leave, There are other worlds, But you said you chose this for me, It's funny how even stars like you would even lie to a human like me.
I thought all you said was true, So I hoped, You dimmed and dimmed, But I was dimmer so I thought it didn't matter.
You were my little star, You were my light, It didn't matter if you became different or not, It didn't matter if you ran out of light that night.
But I was so stupid, So naive, I'm so old, Yet so dumb.
I woke up one morning, With a jar shattered into the floor, I called out your name, But your weren't there at all.
You said promises were meant to be kept, But like a bird that I thought you were, You left, Left me alone here.
I picked up the shards you left me, It broke the skin on my fingers, Blood dripped onto the floor, And my heart broke into different pieces.
How stupid was I, To think that stars would be here with me in the morning, How stupid was I, To think that the world would stop for both of us just so I can see you every night.
I thought that a star like you, Would actually stay for a human like me, You promised that you wouldn't run away, But who wouldn't if I'm a monster myself.
The world spins, My head spins, As the feelings you left me swam, Swam in swampy rivers that had resided in my head.
I'm so confused, A cat with a laser you pointed at, Playing me around like a toy, You made me believe that you'd stay, but alas you didn't.
Heavy breathing, The monsters in the corners of my room, Glowing red eyes, I wished you were here.
Scars on my hands, Had started to gone numb, My heart, my brain, my thoughts that had been racing, Had stopped very abruptly.
It had caught me out of breath, My nails dug onto my palms, I waited at the window, For maybe you'd decide to come pass by.
I see all the stars up there, Laughing and talking, Doing just fine, But you, are you doing just fine?
I heard the stars talking about you, How dim you've gotten, And getting angry that you shouldn't have gone down here, And I'm sorry..
I heard you fighting back before, But right now? Not anymore, You were laughing with them, Shining brighter.
Whilst I'm a shadow, A shadow of you, I hoped and chased, But I've stopped.
I can hear you, But can no longer see you, Maybe it's better that way, Because you'd make me cry all over again.
One night on December, I see you passing by, You were singing a song only stars knew, You were whispering to others what and I wished you would whisper to me too.
And that night, I wished that I could sleep and never wake up again, Maybe if I could be a star, And fly over there just like you.. you'd like me back too?
Spinning around the world, Seeing everyone's faces, Billions of people looking at me, But I won't be shy, I'd be shining bright.
I'd hear them whisper, Just as I whispered at you, Hear them cry, And be caught to light their rooms of monsters.
But I'm a human still, Dull, Striving to be bright, But never succeeding.
I woke up in the middle of the night, I see you knocking at my door, Bright light gone dark, Tears streaking your cheeks but I tried to ignore you.
Apologies you plead, Soft woven eyes looking at me, Your hands were bleeding as it banged on the glass screen, That night, you said my name.
Stupidly, I stood up, Opened the windows for you, I just can't let you be like that.
In my arms you cried, In a melody of tears, Once I would've wished this, But right now I wish you could stop.
Then I realized, Right now I was brighter than you, I was a glowing blue, I was a star like you.
I held you in my arms, I said goodnight, I left you behind, And tomorrow, I'll pass you by.
Little star, I loved you so, But when you love someone, Sometimes you have to let them go.
I am to soar the skies, But I'd never leave you, The world spins, a million days passed by, But you'd always be in my mind.
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