It was night, The clouds veil the skies, The stars where no where to be found, And I'm all alone again.
Lying on my bed, As ravens fly ahead, I alone with the stead of my beating heart, And my thoughts running wildly.
Demons down below, Roaring laughters of people I despised, I have no where left, And I'm stuck here fending for my own.
All of it was a harsh melody of tune, All the blood lost and the tears shed, The disappointments I have cost, Perhaps I should change.
But tell me where did I go, Where did the child who's laughs were a symphony? Who's dreams could light the skies, And who's hope would make you smile?
Tell me where did she go, For I want to be her again, I want to make people smile, Want to make them feel alright.
All the demons down below, Said that they saw her hanging by a noose, An old year etched smile on her face, And a "goodbye" written in blood.
And all around hands grasp me, Telling me to bring her back alive, To run around, And have a merry day.
But tell me, grim reaper, How did you make all those souls live again? How did you make all those others die? Didn't all of them deserve to live life the same?
Why is the world unfair, For all yeh people trying their best, For all those mothers with children to feed, And all those dads who bend their backs over for their family?
"Smile," the tell me, The demons chide me, The angels force me, While all the hands pull me apart.
And so I place this mask of happiness, On a sorrowful one far beyond, I smiled as tears threatened to fall, Just to have that child again.
I want to learn how yeh world gets to decide, Who lives, And who dies, For she didn't deserve any farewell or goodbye.
Nights and nights, I stare up mirrors, Seeing how haunted I am, How different I am from every other kids.
I'm only 5 and a half, But I have black lipstick on, And skull rings, And a wall full of suicide notes.
People pass around and see my scars, Thy ask me if mommy never cared enough, Or if I think all of this is cool, Mister if I may ask, do you think it's cool that I want to die?
"Poor child," they'd coo, I try to smile at them, I try to be polite, But none of them really works.
But then you waltz into my life, Like someone I've never met, You asked me who I was, And told me I'd be fine.
Nights and nights we've come across, Shooting stars across the skies, Hoping, wishing, That one day all of us would be fine.
Nights and nights at midnight, You'd try to scare the monster away, Sing me lullabies, And told me that I shouldn't follow what they say.
In meadows we skipped, Picking daisies and tulips, And I hoped to see you next time, The next day.
The day that I turned 6, You were there cheering me on, Clapping hands, And singing birthday songs.
I knew that Ive found a friend, One to keep my secrets with, That I'll be okay now, That I'm perfectly fine.
One night you told me we'd play a game, As you dragged me into a room, Show me flames, As they danced onto your skin.
And you'd smile at me like no one had ever before, Like it's a sun illuminating, Then you'd tell me you loved me, Swing me all around for tonight I am free.
You cast away the shadows, With the flames you play with, And it was the best thing I've seen, You're the best person I've met.
Under the moonlight, With the music only we could hear, My tiny palms against yours, We swayed to the rhythm of the stars.
We ran about the meadows, I'm the graveyards we sang serenades, And as sparrows turned to swans that night, You're the only one I could see.
In those stark blue eyes of yours, I see a reflection of me, Of us, Maybe a family.
And up above we constellations, Or hearts in a melody of sync, Maybe I'm not really young any more, Maybe I'm okay.
Round about the towns in our carriages, Writing both our names in cement, Teaching each other languages, Most of which I can't even comprehend.
Most times, I wanted times like this, Wanted time with you, Never be alone.
But one night, You said farewell to me, You bid goodbye, And you told me to never cry.
The night before that on that one roof top, You held me close, As I had that one last dance with you, You told me that you'll be off to war.
A war far greater than mine, That you'll never forget me, Till the moment that you die, That this is not a goodbye.
But babe, you know that I'll miss you though, I'll miss the waltz, The flames that you've shown me, The ways that you've made me happy.
As our hands last intertwine, And I miss your touch, And you turn away, I'm left all alone.
The rain poured down, And my heart went numb, I said goodbye, And looked at you one last time.
As tears poured out, The night is never coming now, As I walked down the muddied road, Never looking back.
I had felt that you'd never come back, So I tried to forget, As I turned around, I missed the chance to see you turn around, cry ,and wave goodbye.
That night when we were counting constellations, Now there're only found, As the tears form on my lashes, So long, love.
But one morning, As I heard a knock on the door, I saw a pair of stark blue eyes, And I shed a melody of tears.
I had ran to you, With my arms open wide, And we stood there, By the door at 12pm as you sang to me our lullaby.
It sang about our sorrows, How much I love you, How much you cared, And a promise of never letting go.
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