Last Christmas, I met you, As I stood at the edge of a building, Ready to throw my life away.
I had known I didn't matter, That some child deserves the air I breath more, Every night I had wished for my heart to stop, I had felt like I wasn't good enough.
That every word I had spoken, All the books I've read and written, All the hoping and dreamings I've done, Is just a waste of time.
I had thought that my boat wouldn't get me through, This vast ocean is drowning me in, With sharks out to get me, Why should I live if I'll die anyway?
Down small alleys, Ran happy children, With their caroling songs, And the sound of coins as they hit the jar.
I never had those before, Because before I was held captive, In the claws of some monster, And now I can't ever let go.
All of that had changed because I met you, You were my imperfect hero, My knight in shining armor, You were my soldier in peppermint patterned Tees.
I hated being the damsel in distress, The one who needs to be saved, The one who can't save herself, But you make me feel alright.
That night when you pulled me closer, Your breath sent shivers through my spine, You made me feel as if someone cared, As if I wasn't a lost puzzle in a bad picture.
You made me smile, Like I've never smiled before, Ear to ear, I grin, My world is suddenly not in monochrome.
Your calloused hands in mine, As we danced around the snow, Chiming bells all around, Narrating how happy we could be.
Sitting on roof tops, Looking down upon the vast city beyond us, Last time I stood on a roof I had wanted to die, But all I want now is to spend my life with you.
Whispering sweet things, Kissing under mistletoes, We used to be the definition of a perfect couple, Envious people around us.
But I loved you, And you loved me, We loved each other, And we promised to go down this lane forever.
Imperfect people formed perfect couples, The depressed learned how to smile, We were a perfect couple, Not anymore though.
The place where we used to dance, Lacks footprints, The dirt splotches of my sketcher shoes are no where to be found, I wonder how long ago we've lost each other.
If all those love you said were all a lie, Maybe I wasn't a good enough Juliet, Maybe my glass slippers didn't really fit, I am sorry, my prefect used to be prince.
I wonder if she's waiting by your window, If she danced with you to waltzes I'd never known, I wonder if she makes you happy, And or is it really worth to leave me here alone.
I miss your voice, Lulling me to sleep, Even as the wolves outside howled, I missed how you stuck with me.
I miss your calloused hands, I missed their feel on me, I missed your beautiful smile,
I miss how we used to be.
Now at midnight, As monsters latch on to my feet, I'm left singing my own songs, And encouraging myself to smile.
As the black mist empowered my body, And I have dropped down to insanity, Longing for you, Maybe you were better of with her.
Once again I found myself, Standing on the edge of a building, Looking down bellow the city, Like we had done together.
That time I had your hand around mine, That time I had you pulling me in, That time your breath said a thousand words, But there is no one to save me now.
In the air the smell of gingerbread and hot coca, Little children singing Carol of the Bells, They seem really happy, In contrast to me.
With a smile on my face, I braved the height of the building, I fell slowly, No turning back now.
In my mind I see you, Trying to reach out your hand for me, Sorry, love, but I wasn't worth it after all, I wasn't enough.
I saw you kissing her under the moonlight, Unafraid to be listed down on the naughty list, You were dancing to a lovely tune, And I'm dying a not so lovely death.
If you see me dead, I hope you don't miss me, And it wasn't your fault that I ended up like this, Would you please turn your back around and forget?
Last Christmas someone made me happy, This Christmas would never end now, Last Christmas I met my hero, This Christmas I lost myself just as I lost you.
I lost your longing touch, Your now fading smile, I lost the way you feel on me, The way you kiss me.
I lost the glint in your deep blue eyes, The way the used to look at me, The way you looked at her, Full of unspeakable emotions.
I missed the way our hearts beat in sync, The way our mouths spell the same words, I miss dancing to nonexistent music, I miss singing "My Heart Will Go On" with you.
I miss your soft voice by me, Eating gingerbread man cookies, Spotting constellations, And wondering if how many children we'd make.
One night we promised each other though, That may death not let us part, But as you said goodbye to me, Something inside me said goodbye to you.
All our promises were broken, And you've walked away out of my life, Just as anyone I've ever met, No one ever stays.
I still love you though, And I had wondered every night if you still would remember me, I was hoping for a one last dance, One more chance that I knew would never come.
If you love someone you let them go, And I do love you, I did love you with everything I have, Therefore, I am letting you go.
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