Goodnight, love

Horns

Sitting all alone,
By the dark of the night,
With no one to be with,
Time has returned to before.

I really thought I could happy,
In a world of mishaps and misunderstandings,
Of faults and criticisms,
In a world where I'm a disgrace.

I'm a fool,
The biggest of them all,
I have joker right beside me,
And insanity at my door.

I'm locked in a cell,
Bound to ropes,
On a wall with many windows,
A room with not a door.

I've got myself stuck down here,
And I don't know how to work myself out,
Above me is hell,
Outside the windows is where the burning yell for help.

I can't help them though,
Such a worthless child,
Demons said that I need more lessons,
And they forced me to believe their lies.

That when I grow up I'll be just like them,
That I'll be a hope for the greatest,
That I'll be the best, the prettiest,
And all of that bogus.

I gave up on screaming for help,
I gave up on struggling to free myself,
A hopeless rat,
A girl who can't free herself from her nightmares.

'What a shame' they all think of me,
A demon with a kind heart,
A fragment of a shadow,
With a disgustingly beautiful smile

Those ones above me,
Wanted me to be like them,
Sharpen my nails into knives,
And slaughter all the masses.

They told me they missed me,
The child with a beautiful smile,
But now I'm a liar,
A faulty demon's daughter with an arrow through the heart.

They said I should stop loving too much,
I felt the arrow sinking deeper,
I always got myself wincing,
But those that I love never batted an eye.

"You could be the best of the best," they said,
But That's not true,
I won't be the jack of all trades,
The best I'll be is the master of none.

Always left alone to my fantasies,
To the ghost of a love I so needed,
And turned backs of people I loved before,
They never wanted to look at me.

They were my heroes,
My saviors,
Little did I know that I was their "treasure",
I was used for exchange.

All the love they showed to me,
Was gone in a blink of an eye,
As they threw me like paper areoplanes,
Without a care on where I'd land.

I forgave them,
Like a fool,
I turned a blind eye,
And gave them a sweet smile.

I thought someone could care for me,
I thought someone would love me,
But no matter how good I could be,
I'll always be a demon's child.

Those smirking demons,
With pointed axes,
Shameless and never fearing,
I hated them.

They made me who I am,
And I hate them,
In every which way possible,
I hated them even as sometimes I really loved them.

They said they were proud of me,
For I've let the burning burn,
They said that I was taking on the right path,
But was I really?

I told people I was here to help them,
But the horns on my head tell them otherwise,
They'd run away away from me,
And I'm stuck all alone again.

In the pouring rain,
Wounded and crying,
Because I really thought I was the same,
I really thought I could help.

Those who love stayed afar,
Laughing, pointing at me,
As I picked my pieces up,
As I told myself that I give up.

I was the demon's child,
Who can't free herself from the shackles digging her skin,
Today I'll be free,
Today I'll outshine my parent's legacy.

So with an evil, satisfying smirk,
I've given up for good and I had told myself I was never returning,
I'll never be the princess with the horns,
I'll be the greatest and I'll show you all.

I'll never dance a quartet again,
Never again for you to see,
Never will I smile for kindness,
And all the love in my heart had begone.

It's midnight and I'm pulling my chains,
I'm pulling myself together,
With bleeding, scratched hands,
I'll be free, just so you see.

My prime will come before your eyes,
And you'll be bending on your knees,
Worshiping me,
For I'll be the best of the best.

I'll be the greatest of all jests,
I'll blindfold your eyes,
Then gag your mouth,
Then force you to walk into a cliff.

I'll laugh when you're dead,
I'll have a parade,
Because I am of no use to you,
And you have long ago lost your purpose to me.

I'm the demon's child,
The greatest child,
I'll set the world on fire,
And all of humanity will die.

I give up and I won't be a slave,
So I'll rule the world as a demon's daughter,
Without mercy and all the hellfire,
I'll bring havoc and destruction to those who never really cared.

I'll be stronger than anyone,
For Satan is my father,
For my heart is beating,
For I am now free.

I take the stairs by two steps,
I'll never look back again,
To the chains and to the girl I once were,
To the smile and pieces of heart I gave.

I slaughter the demons that were high above me,
With nails sharp as blades,
With a heart screaming for vengeance,
I'll end you all like you have me.

One, two, three,
I'll be by your door,
Four, five, six,
Your blood will be pouring from my hand.

As you watch me kill you,
I hope you're happy for who I am now,
You turned me into this,
And I have no intention of ever coming back.

I'll be a demon of lies,
Of fears,
I'll rule the world,
The little girl would never come back.

Not in a century,
Nor an eternity,
For that little girl is me,
And I am done with everything.

I'm done with you,
I'm done with fixing myself,
A thing that couldn't be fix,
I have given up.

I've given up on being good,
On being a horned angel,
For I'll never belong with these steel horns,
For deep down I'll never be truly kind.

So I'm over with the sweet smiles,
And the false truths made to impress,
I'm done with the heartache and the back stabs,
So... I'll see you again when I kill you, dearest friend.