Goodnight, love

Monsters in the Dark

Whispering voices,
Calling my name,
Clawing in the dark,
With nails of iron.

Howling at night,
For their lack of freedom,
Shuddering in cold,
No one cared for them.

My momma told me,
Bad things happen at night,
All those fairytales,
All those stupid things are true.

They roam in the dark,
In tall hoods,
Feasting on children,
For they've got no money for food.

Running wild, running deep,
Those children screamed,
But it's too late now,
It's too late I'm afraid.

Misunderstood souls,
Mistaken for sinners,
Heaven sent,
But hell damned.

They roar,
They screech,
They howl,
They know nothing better.

They run,
They pounce,
They feast,
They'd want no rather.

They were demons, the people said,
They called priests to slaughter them,
Burning, burning,
To ashes they went, but one.

Standing alone,
Oblivious, never caring,
I am alone now,
I have no one to love now.

I cry myself to bed,
I drink myself drunk,
And I worked myself dead,
But no one is ever going to live again.

The humans rejoiced,
For my family is no more,
They hung lanterns that hurt my eyes,
Fireworks that makes my ear bleed.

My momma told me,
One New Year's Eve,
To close my eyes and dance under the moonlight,
Never listen to them.

When I was 5,
I cried myself to sleep,
My little sister by my feet,
She told me it was okay.

I was weak and never strong,
I was quiet, not fearless,
I never ate children and preferred to starve,
But they said it was okay.

"Little girl," my mother said,
"This little warrior of mine,
With a golden heart and a pleasing soul,
Thou shall never die."

Running wild and running free,
With little children, I used to be,
They never knew of who I was,
They'll never know not to go into my home.

In woods we play a game,
Of hide and seek and London bridge,
Singing songs out of tune,
And watching the sun set.

That night I slept soundly,
And woke up to the sound of screams,
Men with forks outside the house,
Apparently I've eaten 3 human beings.

I never stopped blaming myself for being so heartless,
Never stopped hating blood,
Never stopped hating me,
Hating me for things that I've unintentionally done.

My father died,
Gunned by them,
Mother cried for 3 whole nights,
And I never saw my friends again. 

I was a monster, they all said,
Shoving me off like some cigarette,
But I never meant too,
I never wanted to..

3 weeks later,
Mother hanged herself,
My little sister cried so hard,
My brother held me back.

I don't understand how this world works,
We didn't intentionally do anything wrong,
It wasn't their fault,
It was MINE.

Sitting in the dark upon a candle,
With teary eyes we all stare,
No one left for us,
They've abandoned us because of me.

I am a monster here,
I am the cruel one here,
And they still say I'm okay,
Aren't I too much?!

Yelling at the stars,
Yelling at the skies,
That Whoever's there might hear me,
And bring them back to life.

The stars I used to see as friends,
Now are just balls of heat,
They form constellations,
That I now don't wish to see.