Goodnight, love

Vampire's Ballad

The day mist clouded the night,
I lived my days to no end,
Believed that night would never come,
That vampires would never loom.

I was a kid then,
Tales of how vampires devoured hope,
Sucking our blood,
Letting us die.

I thought I'd never turn into them,
That I'd stay human,
That I'll be human,
That I'll die human.

So did others,
They thought that I'd be me forever,
That I'd be smiling as I used to,
But I fooled them good.

We never expected for me to be what I am,
Said that they missed what I used to be,
Laugh at them,
They turned me into a monster.

But I try not to be,
I try to be as humanly as possible,
But sometimes it's inevitable,
To feed on a human corpse.

To be what they are,
To be what these shackles weighing me down used to be,
What they were used for,
And I try to understand them.

I compare me to the free sometimes,
They who walk without a leash,
And I try to break free,
But I never could.

Monsters, monsters,
They who loom above me,
Would you set me free,
The answer has always been a no.

Sometimes I wish I could be superman,
Sometimes I dream of flying away,
Lighting up these dark nights,
But all of them are mere dreams.

None of them ever comes true,
Even as I try to chase them,
These chains would hold me back,
The monsters would haunt me.

Mister, mister,
The kids were right,
There are monsters,
And they're looming over me.

The monsters that hid under my bed,
The ones that haunt my dreams,
Has finally came to get me,
And turn me into them.

But god forbid,
Please don't turn me into them,
I try to be kind,
But every punch I get gets me closer.

My cries and screams never mattered,
Only strength will in this game,
Of tug and war,
And I'm not strong enough.

I wish that sometimes,
I could claw my heart out,
Keep it from turning black,
Keep it pure.

"But fear 'o fear, dear child,
That dream is too high,
Your wings aren't strong enough,
You won't be able to soar," they said.

And I believed them,
Because as they said,
"Parents know best",
And I can't do anything about it.

I spent nights and nights,
Staring out the tower window,
Watch as the Ravens squawking fly by,
Imagine if the sky was lit up.

But imagination's far from reality,
Anyone could imagine, dream,
But not everyone could turn it to reality,
Not everyone could smile.

Try as they might,
Chase as they might,
They won't be able to capture,
They won't be able to fly.

I dream to be superman,
Doesn't mean I'll be,
Doesn't mean I'll not be a monster,
Doesn't mean that there wouldn't be a monster inside me.

All the tears I spent,
All the screams,
Were all part of my once pure soul,
That's turning black.

Heart, my heart,
Please don't join them,
Stay white,
As long as I live.

Or I dream that it would,
Doesn't mean that when I wake up a century later,
I won't be a monster,
Doesn't mean that I'd see the sun.

"Dark sky, dark sky,
Shine down your stars," I begged,
I knew it won't happen,
I still tried.

My soul winced in pain,
As the sky got darker,
But I'll stay strong,
And paint my own sun.

I smiled at the thought of seeing white in black,
I smiled as I followed the demons' rule,
Since that's the only way,
And I'll be a monster anyways.

Monster, not monster,
What's the difference?
The little child is dead,
All I can do is bury him.

I'll grow fangs and claws,
Even as I fight,
So what's the point?
Day would never come for me anyways.

Only path is forward,
Monster or human,
I must follow the path,
And be what they intend me to be.

So I shut my eyes,
And killed my heart,
Turning it into a black abyss,
At my own will.

Tears streaked my eyes,
As I mourn the lost child,
As I close the coffin over him,
Follow my path.

Fangs, I grew fangs,
I despised them,
But there's no other choice,
The path is the path.

I am merely a servant of the night,
Where I live,
Where I wake,
Where I sleep.

I am a vampire stronger than Edward,
Stronger than what's holding me down,
Stronger than my captors,
But I'll never be the same.

Mother, mother,
I'm a vampire,
My soul dark as raven's feathers,
And there's no going back.

My dear, my dearest,
I'm sorry for I've followed this path,
Against your screams,
Like they did against mine.

But I swear I love you,
Though I can't promise I won't turn you,
I won't kill you,
To be me.

I am a vampire,
And I fear that I'd suck your blood,
And now I shall depart,
Before I harm you.

Lies, white lies,
They who I have told you,
Sweet empty promises,
Would never be fulfilled.

Promises were meant to be broken,
Hearts were meant to shatter,
Days are gonna be over,
And we will be too.

I am a vampire,
Even as I try not to act like one,
It's time for me to break your heart,
It's time for me to leave.

Thank you for being there,
I'm sorry for not trying,
But I'll have to leave you,
Goodbye...