Goodnight, love

Butterfly

I woke up,
To a ceiling of false lights,
Fluorescent,
Soon to burn down.

Fleeting bees,
Left the flower alone,
Made it better,
But took it's heart in return.

Busy cars in busy streets,
Phone in hand,
The traffic lights won't work,
Not tonight.

It starts to rain,
The stars gave out,
All the bright headlights,
And the cruel beeping of horns.

I'm this world,
I walk alone,
Some act as friends,
But I'm all alone.

Sometimes I breathe,
Sometimes I don't,
Attached to an oxygen tank,
Hanging by my hands.

Unstable smile,
An unstable heart,
Filled with lies,
Lashes of stars.

Sometimes I wonder if I died now,
Will I go to heaven?
Sometimes I wonder if there was even a God,
Watching over us.

Sometimes I wonder if I died,
Would everyone be happy?
Would everyone be cheery?
Would the world be a better place.

People begged,
They hoped that I won't go,
But butterfly has reached its time,
I can't fly.

My broken wings,
Slow me down,
I lay on the floor,
Wither and die.

And yet,
They pushed me to go on,
But I can't,
And I didn't want to anymore.

People laughed and pointed at the ugly butterfly,
People spat  at me,
Like I was  a simple nobody,
But I used to be someone greater than this.

So I flew,
My wings aching,
My body hurt,
And my legs plucked by little children.

Tears in my eyes,
And yet,
I can't give up,
Not now.

I continue on,
Miles and miles,
Then I can't do it anymore again,
So I fell down.

People stepped on my poor broken wings,
They didn't care,
I didn't matter,
I... was a simple butterfly.

People blamed,
All their lies,
On my tiny little body,
Even though I was right.

I was kind,
But they forced me to be cruel,
They cut my butterfly wings,
And forced me to be a worm that night.

Yet you found me,
And carried me home,
An ugly worm,
Filled with cuts and bruises.

You gave me paper wings,
Taught me how to fly,
Loved me deeply,
Said I was free.

But I never wanted to leave you,
Hope you wouldn't leave me too,
And we'd grow old,
Together.

Run away from all of this,
Let's fly to Saturn and mars,
You and I will be together,
You and I will be forever.

Best friends,
Woven in cloth,
Painted on walls,
We're heroes not demons after all.

You and I will stay here,
Where no one is normal,
No one is alike,
You and I.

We'll build a rocket ship,
And fly it far far away,
We'll grow old together,
We'll be gold together.

There'll be no rain,
And the stars would be brighter here,
You,
And this little butterfly.