Goodnight, love

Death's a Blessing

I close my eyes every night,
With the Stars that glow above,
And the moon that shines bellow,
And a face that haunts my dreams.

He's terrifying with that mask,
Bearing his fangs at me,
Scratching my identity,
More than I could wish for.

There were some instances,
That I went so close to him,
Near him,
Near his grasps.

But I snap out,
I tried very hard to distance myself,
Away from him,
Away from the monster.

I got more afraid,
When the lands forced me to move,
Closer,
Nearer to him.

My heart beater faster,
The blood in my veins rushed,
I wonder every time  when he'll finally have me,
When that will come alas.

I waited everyday,
Each one feels like torture,
Each one would feel like it will never come,
Each one would prick me inside out.

I waited forever,
Thinking that it won't come,
I tried painting a smile on my face,
And it stayed.

Or at least for awhile,
Then it melted off,
Got browned by the dark wind,
Far beyond my reach.

I know that he will get me,
I know that his hand would crush me,
I know that he will make me disappear,
Make them sad.

I didn't see him for awhile,
Perhaps he's standing by the shadows,
Inspecting how I move,
His eyes boring holes into me.

I grew afraid once again,
Of what he might take hold,
How strong'd his power be,
And when he'll come back.

Then one day he came back,
Without the mask,
The one that hides his face away,
The one that coats him.

I never knew,
That he could be this beautiful,
This luring,
This addicting.

And with a one swift blow,
My breath hitched my heart stopped,
And the painful reality,
Comes piercing through.

It's the end, I thought,
I will never come back,
To the time when my heart wasn't closer,
To the pain I feel now.

When I am whole and not afraid,
When he was a monster is don't want to be near with,
When he was the epitome of my nightmares,
When the signs of him riddled my life.

I closed my eyes as I bid goodbye,
I know he is good and he'll be kind,
As I lay there with my dying breath,
I know I'll create an adventure with the unknown world.

I blinked my eyes for the last time,
He smiled at me and carried me,
In his cold arms,
And took me away from everything forever.