How Much I Love Her

Chapter Twenty- Eight

@justrachellr this one is for you. Thank you and God bless! :)

Leanne's POV

I'm here at the University to get my schedule for Monday. Yes! The second semester that I've been waiting for is finally here now. Everything is going back to normal. I'm happy about it, but there is something that I am still keeping for myself.

I haven't told Phil nor Ate about the nightmares I've been experiencing. The only person that knows about these is my Psychiatrist. I couldn't imagine how to cope up with this without the help of Dra. Cyreen. Our sessions have been very helpful to control my feelings.

Mas nakakaya ko ng kontrolin yung mga naiisip at nararamdaman ko kahit na pa nasasaktan parin ako. Here I am, living the life I left. putting back the pieces left to me.

Mabilis na akong pumunta sa building ng Department namin. On my way to it, the whole place looks just the same. It gives me the feeling like as if it was just yesterday. (the last time I took foot on this ground), but it gives me uneasy feeling as well. The people I see are all new faces. I haven't seen anyone I know yet.

Once I'm at the building, the staffs are giving me nods and smiles. I know they know what happened, and I am very happy that they aren't treating me differently.

"So here's your schedule Leanne. I'm happy you still want to finish your studies." sabi ng Prof. ko pagka abot ng schedule. Siya din ang Prof ko sa first ever major subject ko nung first year college.

"Ah, Opo. Thank you po. Excited na rin po ako na medyo kinakabahan din po at the same time." nahihiyang sagot ko.

"Don't be Leanne. Everything will be fine and just enjoy your last semester in college." She said reassuringly.

Tumuloy na ako dumeretso na sa bookstore to get all the things and books I'll be needing. Phil is expecting to see me afterwards. He said he will help me get my new DSLR camera.

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"Love this one is better because it's ........" at ayan na po si Phil na wala ng humpay ang pag eexplain sa DSLR na hawak nya. 'Di ko na nga mawari ang iniisip nung Sales representative dahil mukhang pati sya ay namamangha nalang dahil mukhang mas kabisado pa ni Phil kesa sa sakanya.

Can you blame us? Isang magaling na Photographer ang kasama ko. He knows every single detail abot the cameras in the store. It's a bit unusal getting the stares and attention I get or we get whenever we are at the mall like now.

People know him. It's cute seeing him smiling and nodding to almost everyone at the mall when people recognize him.

At sa hinaba haba ng diskosyon e yung gusto nyang camera nalang ang binili namin since sya naman talaga ang may alam kung ano at alin ang dapat gamitin.

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Phil's POV

I have to admit that everything is still overwhelming for me. I am happy that after weeks of efforts and treatment, Leanne is now getting better and better everyday. She has been busying herself for the past weeks with supplying cookies the shops of Gelo and Kuya Jeric. and here it comes the most awaited "going back to school".

I'm happy to see how excited and nervous she is. God only knows how thankful I am that she now has and take hold to the courage to go back to school and face the world.

Here we are right now in the mall.It's fascinating how she manages herself gracefully in the crowd. She smiles to everyone approaching us. She walks, smiles and talks with confidence.

"Kain na tayo, Love?" tanong ko.

"Sure. gutom na nga rin ako e" she answered.

I guided and brought her to our favorite restaurant. This is one of the things I missed the most. Going to the malls roaming around and watching movies. Things that normal couples usually do.

"Kumusta sa university kanina?" tanong ko habang kumakain.

"Ayos lang naman, wala nagbago except for the new faces I haven't seen before from lower year levels I assume." sagot nya ng tila inaalala pa yung kanina. "nasa akin na rin yung schedule ko. All set for Monday." dagdag pa nya na bakas ang excitement sa boses.

"That's great then. Don't forget I'm always here for you, always willing for any kind of help you need." sabi ko ng naka ngiti.

"I'll try not to as long as I can. But I'll put that in mind and thank you." she answered.

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(First Day of School)

Leanne's POV

I feel the stares I get on my way to my first class. I expected it, and I readied myself but for some reason it still gives me an uneasy feeling to get all the attention I'm getting right now.

However, despite of all the stares and uneasy feeling I get, I manage to not meet their eyes and go straight to my class.

It isn't surprising I still get the same reaction of the crowd when I entered the room. I picked the chair a bit away from the others. I guess, tama na muna sa ngayon na medyo dumistansya na muna ako since alam ko na medyo naiilang din sila sa akin.

I'm not expecting them to ask anything, but then again, I know that they know who I am. This is something that I readied myself for.

Isang malaking eskandalo ang nangyari noon sa akin at alam ko na dala-dala parin ng university ang ala-ala na yun. My doctor said, at some point I would be really forced to deal with it. She's been helping me coping up and I could say that I get better day by day.

Mas nakokontrol ko na ngayon ang emosyon ko at tingin ko kaya ko narin naman i-handle ang ganito. Tama na ang mga taon na nasayang sa pagtakbo ko sa mga bagay na kailanman ay hindi ko na mababago pa.

Minutes passed and dumating narin ang Prof. Mabilis itong nagpakilala at iexplain ang nature ng subject namin sakanya. Matapos noon ay hiniling nya magpakilala ang bawat isa sa buong klase. Napansin kong nag aasaran lang iba at nag tutuuan naman ang iba king kaya't....

"I'll go first na po, Miss Leslie." sabi ko ng itaas ko ng aking kamay.

"O, God Leanne. It's you. I didn't notice you earlier." she said with a surprise look on her face.

Mabilis akong tumayo at pumunta na sa harapan. Huminga ako ng malalim at pinaalala sa sariling ipinangako ko na sa Diyos na I'll do this right for the sake of my loved ones and all their hard works just to bring me back to where I am now.

"Hello everyone! I'm Leanne De Jesus. Originally, I am few years your senior, but I wasn't able to finish the course because of what happened to me." I caught everyone's attention by what I said. "I know you guys have an idea of who I am, it's okay. Please don't treat me differently just because of what happened. I was, and became a coward once, and now here I am trying my best to be the better person I must have been even right after what happened. I was hurt, and still am even up to this moment. But the difference is that, now I'm taking it as a challenge and inspiration to move forward. Yes, I was destroyed to tiny pieces, but I realized that God has given me gifts that no one will ever take away from me, and those are my loved ones. they never gave up on me and I know they never will. This fight is for God and for them."

Nabigla ako ng bigla silang nagpalakpakan. Napa ngiti ako at bahagyang naluha ng makita ko ang appreciation at pag hanga sa kanilang mga mata. Para rin akong nabunutan ng kung anong tinik sa dibdib. I never expected that finally letting people and myself embrace my situation would be this welcoming.

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A/N: ito na po yung nakayanan ko. HAHA :) I am now also working on my second book, Kuya, Be My Boyfriend.

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