Last First Kiss 2 (HS)

Chapter 9

It's been a week since I've talked to Harry. I don't even know if I've had enough time to think. Rayne's room mate, Allison has been on vacation so I have been staying in her bed. I literally haven't came out of her room in the past week. I told Liam I would stay here so he brought my suitcase.

I would watch movies on Rayne's laptop all day. I started contacting arenas for the coming up tour. The boys have started writing new songs for the next album. I've been managing them from afar. Now I'm just lazily laying in Allison's bed waiting for Rayne to get back from her classes.

My birthday is in less than a week and my life is a mess at the moment. It's on Saturday and today is Monday. I open my computer and emails flood onto the screen. After a few minutes a total of 106 emails are in my inbox. I scroll down reading the headings and all of them are from management.

I grab one of Rayne's notebooks and a pen from the nightstand to jot down things they are making me do. Starting from the first one I make small notes. Half an hour goes by before I have a whole list of things to do.

All of them involve meeting with the boys. I don't know if I can face them. Louis, Zayn and Niall probably think I'm some whore. And for Liam and Harry well I don't know. Telling them what to do will be a lot more difficult.

I turn my computer off before setting it on the nightstand then grab my phone. 2 missed calls from Harry. 1 missed call from Liam. 3 missed calls from Louis. 2 missed calls from Niall. 4 missed calls from Zayn. And a bunch of missed texts.

From Rayne (Friday)- hey im picking up some food and ill be back in a few minutes

From Eleanor (Wednesay)- please call me Em im worried about you

From Louis (Thursday)- hows everything going?

From Liam (Friday)- i think we need to talk Emily

From Zayn (Saturday)- we haven't heard from you in days please let us know youre okay xx

From Niall (Sunday)- i miss youuu please call or text us just let us know you're okay:)

From Harry (now)- Emily I need to know if you're okay I love you please don't forget that.

I haven't even as much unlocked my phone this whole week. I don't want to read on Twitter about all this and all the hateful things people have said. I went to my messages and thought it be fair just to let them know I was alive.

Forward to Eleanor, Harry, Liam, Louis, Zayn, Niall: hey guys im sorry for not contacting you sooner i just havent been on my phone much. im doing okay though so dont worry:)

I shut my phone off before getting out of the bed to go to the bathroom. My feet padded along the cold floor making me shiver. I looked at my appearance in the mirror and I looked exhausted. There were no bags under my eyes since all I have done this week was lay in bed and either sleep or watch movies.

I lifted my sweatshirt up revealing my stomach. It was skinny but too skinny. I have been in no mood to eat this week. The last time I ate a full meal was Friday when Rayne shoved it down my throat. I pulled my sweatpants and sweatshirt off making me shiver even more but it is noticeable that I have lost weight but in a bad way.

My thighs were a tad bit thinner and my hips lost some of their curve. My bum and my breasts seemed the same as they were but I looked starved. I wasn't though. I was just upset. I am upset. I stepped on Rayne's scale in the bathroom and I was down to 115.

My usual weight is 120. Okay well I can easily gain five pounds if I tried. I remember in between 7th and 11th grade all I cared about was losing weight. Now I need to gain weight. I slipped my baggy clothing back on then used the bathroom.