Let's All Make Believe - Oasis

Chapter 2

Liam did come back though. It was just a few days later. After what he said was the last of the tour Be Here Now tour for this year. Jamie and Sinead were out so it was just me and him.

I decided to try not to be hostile towards him since he was here proving that he wasn't here out of the blue just because he could because he was near by. He should be at home with his wife in London, enjoying his time off, preparing for Christmas and that.

"Where's Jimmyi?" he asked once he'd gotten comfy on the sofa.

"Asleep." I pointed out, realising he'd been down for a nap for a while now. "And we don't call him that anymore, we call him by his first name."

"What are ya trying to do, wipe all memory of us out?"

"No. I never liked the name" I never liked naming my son after some random criminal, now Noel's not around, I don't have to.

"You're enjoying this." he accused. "How can you enjoy taking a son away from his dad, his family? How can you enjoy ditching the people you love?"

"I wasn't enjoying waiting for Noel to love me for him to go and marry someone else. I didn't enjoy you fucking with me when you're married too. And I certainly didn't enjoy hallucinating my dead fiance." I ranted at him. "So don't you dare tell me I'm enjoying any of this cos I'm not, I'm just getting on with my life." I ranted at him.

Not being hostile was obviously easier said than done if he was going to bring things up like that and thinking he was in the position to judge me for what I've done.

"You hallucinated?" he stared at me with concern but that quickly turned to judgement. "You took drugs after all the shit you gave Noel about quitting?"

The alternative would've been much worse, if it hadn't come from drugs. "Yeah, it was Luke who told me I had to leave. Told me not to look back so I didn't."

"Shouldn't listen to a dead guy." He shook his head.

"He was the only one there and making any sense." I pointed out. "Seriously, what was I supposed to be, be Noel's live in mistress?"

Jamie and Sinead avoided had the subject while Oasis were gone on tour half the world away. Kenzie, Peggy and my parents were miles away up North. There was no one else but a cocaine driven hallucination I could talk to honestly.

"No. Mine."

I snorted with laughter, it wasn't even funny. I couldn't tell if he was serious or if it was a joke. "I know you don't love Patsy but that's never gonna happen. We're done, you're not worming your way back in, not this time."

"I'm here for the baby, nothing else." That couldn't have been more obvious of a lie but I didn't challenge it. He needed to stick to it. "Do ya know what it is yet?"

"A boy."

"When's he due?" he asked, not being able to contain his smile.

"13th of March."

He his face turned to disappointed. "Shit, I'll be in Chile or summat."

"Another reason that album shouldn't've happened." I deflected.

There was nothing wrong with Be Here Now for me but the recording was no fun and now the tour is going to keep Liam away from his child's birth.

"I'll be there, I'll be here when he's born. Whatever it takes."

"You can't be in two places at once and you're not letting the fans down."

"If it's between you and them, I'll pick you every time."