Let's All Make Believe - Oasis

Chapter 36

I dropped the idea of asking Noel for a DNA test like a hot potato. It wasn't the right time. I decided I'd rather not know while the subject had gone quiet. I was happy with Liam. I couldn't go upsetting his brother. I'd done enough of that. Why you gotta bring up the past? That's what I kept hearing.

After our little date, Liam became much less my carer and more the best friend I used to have even though he was still too overprotective of me. He was always going to be like that after everything he'd seen. I knew I was pushing myself and the both of us but I didn't want to be ill or let it hold me back now I'd accepted the Schizophrenia was there.

I was getting my life back. I was seeing Kenzie and Peggy when I wanted. I still wanted more though. I had two young kids, there wasn't time to sit at home, missing out. I needed to make it up to Ste, all the times I wouldn't even take him to the park.

I came up with an idea that Liam wasn't having. I was better and I was happy, I wanted to go out places. I thought a trip to the beach would do us good. He acted like I was behaving chaotically. He didn't want to let go of me being his private inpatient.

"I can't keep up with you, one minute you can't fucking get outta bed the next you're arranging days out!" he reacted.

"It's just Blackpool, for a few hours. I'm not "

"It'll be packed, it's summer, what if..."

It was May. It wasn't even close to the school holidays. It wasn't even a hot day, it was just supposed to be sunny for once. It wasn't going to be busy but then one other person being there would be busy as far as he was concerned.

"What if it's too much for me? What if I relapse from being cooped up? What if you just have done with it and wrap me up in cotton wool for the rest of my life?"

"Can't ya visit mam or Kenzie or maybe Jamie and his missus?"

I should've been happy he was suggesting going out of Manchester

"No, I want us to go out as a family. You're not scared about me, you're scared to be seen with me"

"That's bullshit."

"Then what's stopping us?"

"Well let's invite Kenzie and her girls now you're hanging out again."

He insisted. I guessed that he thought he'd look less like the dad that way. He was on shaky ground with Patsy afterall. He didn't need anyone making any more assumptions.

Even though I just wanted it to be just my family I was still dead excited to go. I was on such an upswing that I was trying dead hard to seem calm. I made sandwiches and packed all sorts while Liam called for a taxi.

All the drive over there I was so mad it wasn't me behind the wheel. I tried to work out when exactly it was three months since Liam took my licence away so I could get it back as soon as possible. I knew it wasn't so simple as telling them I was better and asking for it back. I wished he'd just SORNed the car and hid my licence, he didn't have to get the government involved. Although I wouldn't've stopped until I'd found those keys when I wanted to take off. I needed to drive again.

We met Kenzie and her girls at a car park by the beach, she had her own transport. She had a surprise in store for us.

"I hope you don't mind me bringing my partner along." she said as she got out the car. "Darren."

"No, course not. The more the merrier." I smiled la little shocked, looking for him.

He got out the driver's side. Darren was tall and really muscley, built like a rugby player. He was physically pretty damn intimidating but he smiled and immediately set about making friends.