Let's All Make Believe - Oasis

Chapter 14

Time stood completely still. That's how it felt. I just couldn't make sense of the brothers being at my door while they were meant to be touring somewhere in the world. The only times they took breaks were for award shows (there was none of them in Liverpool) or someone had walked out. I couldn't come up with an answer so I froze.

"Liam really did give you one before you left." Noel said checking out my body.

I crossed my arms with hostility, as if that hid anything at this point, trying to order them straight back out my home. "Stop it! Go away!"

"Don't be horrible." Noel dismissed me. "I've come to win you back, we both have."

"You are dead, you choked on your own blood." I told him, seeing flashes of what I'd done. "I killed you."

I went back to Supernova Heights and I'd killed Meg and then I'd killed him in jealous revenge. I didn't feel that guilty when I relived what I'd done, I felt the thrill that I'd had that night, the sweet, ecstasy of inflicting pain on them for the pain they caused me. I realised Meg was dead but he wasn't.

"I survived." He lifted his neck to expose a huge scar, the flesh I'd opened had been hastily sewn back together somehow.

"You couldn't've."

I saw it all. I knew what happened. He was dead when I left Supernova Heights. I had blood on my hands.

"He did." Liam nodded. "You called an ambulance and helped him."

That wasn't what I remembered but I accepted it, relieved he was alive. "Aren't you angry?"

"No, I'd never be mad at you." Noel assured. "I love you."

"I love you too..." I admitted, needing to explain things.

"Why did ya do it?" Liam asked, interrupting. "You were gone, why'd you try to kill him?"

"I was angry, I thought I had to. I needed to punish him and Meg."

"Why not me and Patsy?" he asked. "We betrayed you first."

"I... I don't know. I'm sorry Noel."

"I forgave you. I understand. I'm glad she's dead. I shouldn't've married her, I should've married you."

"Yeah, well we never even managed to get engaged." I tried to joke but no one was laughing.

"Can I see my son?"

I took a deep breath and looked him straight in the eye. "I told you, he's not your son."

That's exactly what I told him when I killed him. When I thought I'd killed him.

"You were lying."

"I wasn't, you're not seeing him."

"Why?"

"Cos he's nothing to do with you!"

"I don't care who fucked you to get him, I raised him, he's mine."

"Just leave us alone." I told him weakly.

Noel came close to me. "I want my son and I want you. I'm not leaving 'til I have you back."

He touched his hand on my jaw and kissed me. I flinched at his touch. It was wrong so, so wrong.

"You can't kiss me." I backed away. "I..."

"I can though." Liam said doing as Noel had.

He took my hand, kissing me, stroking my jaw. He knew how to lead me into doing anything, especially this. He looked deep into my eyes. "You want to be with him too. You want us."