Let's All Make Believe - Oasis

Chapter 11

George had a hard time believing a word of what happened to me. She didn't want to hear it. It was late. She just wanted to go to bed after a long shift at work

We got in bed. She fell asleep easily but I couldn't. I went over and over how I'd believed I was losing the baby, what the man said, the paramedics too and how it was gone when I realised Ste was in danger, home alone.

There was something else on my mind too. I realised I'd been neglecting George, focusing on the arguments, going behind her back. I loved her so much, we deserved so much better. I didn't know what to do. Maybe I should just be honest and let her go, it'd make everyone else happy.

In the morning it was like nothing happened last night, like she went to work and I stayed at home. She was happy so I tried to seem like I was too but it just felt fake. I had to work out how to make it better again.

We went out to the car.

"Did you crash last night?" she asked, worried.

I looked at her confused and walked round the car. I didn't know what she was talking about until I saw the bodywork was ruined with a long scratch of the paint. "Crap."

"What happened?"

I couldn't remember and I didn't want to tell her what I did remember. If she knew I'd crashed the car she'd make me sell it "Someone must've gone into it while I was in the hospital."

"Oh so where are we going?"

"Where d'you wanna go?"

"Let's go have some tea at the library?"

"Shall we find him a babysitter." I nodded towards Ste. "If he sees the museum it'll be all Dinosaurs." I spelt the word out so he wouldn't get excited.

"No, he should come."

"Sinead or whoever won't mind..."

She opened the doors on her side. "I'd've thought you'd want to make it up to him after last night."

"Alright, get in the car."

As we sat in the library drinking our teas, eating cake and watching Ste play in the kids' area I realised we really weren't talking much.

"I really didn't mean to leave him." I insisted, thinking she was still mad at me.

"I know."

"Honestly, I mean it. I thought we were in serious trouble."

"I know." she repeated. "It's fine."

"I don't know what I'd do without you, I'd never forgive myself."

She smiled. "Lucky I'm never leaving you. Forget about last night, we're supposed to be having fun."

I wasn't sure why she'd chosen the library as somewhere fun, it wasn't like she was a bookworm. we could've dropped Ste off and gone to a nice little tea shop and had better tea than this chain store crap. At least he was having fun.

He brought us a book that happened to be about dinosaurs to read and soon George was leading the both of us to the museum next door. I didn't want to go walking around a museum, it was so tiring.

"Can't we just take him home and put the Land Before Time on?" I complained.

"No, come on, he loves the real thing." she dragged me along.

"It's not though, is it? They're just bones."

"As opposed to drawings."

"Animation. It's a good film, he likes it."