Let's All Make Believe - Oasis

Chapter 59

When Liam rang to check on me, I ended up calling him out for giving his minimum to the conversation yet again. I was tired of him being pissed off at me.

"How long are you gonna keep up being mad at me cos I didn't want to have sex with you in Jamie's bathroom, around his friends and family?"

"I'm not pissed off about that. You know it's not about that!"

"What's it about then?"

"You know."

"I don't so you'd better tell me."

"You moving with this bird, probably pregnant again, shutting me out."

I rolled my eyes wishing he could see it. I knew he knew that couldn't be true but I still pointed out why it wasn't. "I'm not! I've had periods since then and you used a condom. It wouldn't look good if I turned up to my girlfriend pregnant, would it?"

"You were last time you moved when I din't want you to."

"That's completely different." I told him, not wanting to bring up the past. "You promised you were okay with me doing this and I don't really care what you think because you're not doing anything on your side."

"How can I when you're not gonna be there when I get it done?"

"You can't expect me to sit and wait for you. You've got Patsy, you don't want rid of her, just admit it."

"I don't want Patsy, I want you and I'm not losing out to some bird."

"You're too late, I'm with Lydia. If we were both single, it'd be a different story."

"How are we ever gonna be a family when you're always gonna find someone else first?" he asked frustrated. "You won't give me a chance."

"Maybe that's what's meant to be."

"No! That's not right. I found you, we love each other, we've got a kid."

"You could be describing me and Noel but that didn't work out, did it?"

I wanted to tell him we didn't owe each other anything and we didn't belong together just because of how we met or anything else that had happened since. I didn't because it just sounded like I was ungrateful for it all.

"Cos you were always coming to me and you'll still be coming to me when you're with her so you might as well be brave and be with me, just me."

"I could say the same to you."

"So what do we do?"

I was so focused on making things work with Lydia that I thought we only had one option. "We let life play out, I'm not gonna push you anymore."

"Why can't ya just drop all this stuff with Lydia and I'll come back as soon as the tour's over?"

"She makes me feel normal."

"Normal? You've kept us all in the dark about her. How's that normal?"

"I've not kept her from anyone."

"Mam, your parents, I bet you've not even spoken to your parents."

"Go get a lottery ticket." I told him boredly.

"You were meant to be building bridges with them."

"I know but it turns out it's easier to forget there's bridges to repair."

"Don't get with Lydia, focus on you and your family. Your parents, the boys, fucking Billy."

"I'm doing both."