Let's All Make Believe - Oasis

Chapter 65

Our holiday got ruined and we tried to give each other space after our break up, half term could've gone better and I still wished it was longer because it was lonely when Since we were keeping our break quiet I didn't know who I could talk to.

Even when I took the boys to Peggy's we pretended we were still together. I thought she'd see right through the act but she didn't say anything.

The dog couldn't give her two cents but she did listen. She sat by my side while I talked away at her.

"How can she be so mad about my parents? It's not like they come over every Sunday and I make her disappear."

"They were only here at all because of Billy. It's not like they're gonna show up again."

"It's not my fault her family is so great."

"What can I do to make it up to her?" I asked in frustration.

"We were doomed to fail." I decided. "Every single relationship since Luke, I've made it go wrong somehow. I should just accept that's how it's always gonna be and stay single."

"I can't have on and off drama for the rest of my life. I don't know whether I get bored too quick or I just can't commit."

Delfina sat there right through everything I said, giving sympathetic looks. She wanted us to figure it out, she didn't like the mood we were creating. We were trying not to effect the kids or the dog but she still knew something was off.

I just wanted us to have whatever it was we had before we moved in together. It didn't matter who knew what before then. We didn't do things too soon. That was what everyone was going to think if we didn't get back together but it wasn't true.

...

I decided to call Liam. I'd been stewing on everything, the holiday, him, Billy, Lydia. Everything was going wrong and I was beginning to think it was his fault.

I was convinced he had to have played a part in Billy running away, he wouldn't have done it on his own. "Did you put him up to it?" I accused.

"Put who up to what?"

I explained how Billy had taken a train and turned up in the city I lived in. He insisted this was the first he'd heard of it.

"How could I have told him to do anything?"

"You're always trying to make me tell him the truth, you did this to push me into it but it didn't work."

"I didn't! I've never spoke to him or your parents." he pointed out. "I would've put him in a car with a driver and had him taken to your door so he'd be safe if I was gonna do it. And you were in Blackpool so why would I do it then?"

"To make sure our holiday was over too."

"I didn't have any involvement. Have you forgotten your medication in all this cos you're sounding paranoid?"

"No! I haven't."

"It's easily done."

"I haven't, I just know he wouldn't do it on his own."

"He did though. He wanted to see you, what more reason does he need?"

"I should find his dad. I just have to remember the company he was with, I think it was his dad's..."

"No!" he sounded genuinely concerned. "The only reason you should find him is if you're taking him to the fucking police."

"If I'm supposed to tell him the truth about who his mum is, I have to tell him who his dad is too. Even if what he did was wrong."