Make Me Come

30th Ride

Author's Note: I didn't have any intentions to join contests when I started planning for this story. But some of you were right. Wala namang masama kung sasali tayo right? =) So, it's a yay for #Wattys2017. =)

PS: Sunday is still the update schedule.

Make Me Come song of the day: Superman by Five For Fighting

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After having my dinner with Dan, I decided to walk around the riding club. Hindi rin kasi ako makatulog. Bukas din ay kailangan na naming bumalik ng Manila dahil may mga obligasyon akong naiwan doon. And besides, I had to report at the headquarters para sa parusa ko.

While I was enjoying the cold night breeze, a man standing in the middle of the gazebo on the lake caught my attention. Kahit pa na nakatayo malayo sa kanya, pigura pa lang, sigurado na ako kung sino siya.

Then I felt it. Maybe this is the right time to talk to him. Sabi nila, when you've caused so much pain to someone, you should give them space to calm down and think about themselves.

But I knew better how it felt when I was left without answers to my questions. Yung pakiramdam na binigyan ka niya ng pagkakataong makapag-isip pero hindi niya binigyan ng kasagutan ang mga tanong sa isipan mo para makapagdesisyon ka.

While staring at him, I realized how much I missed the "us". The crazy old friendship we had. Expecting and asking for more really made more damage than I ever imagined.

Hindi ako nag-atubiling mag-iba ng direksyon para pumunta sa bridge papunta sa gazebo na kinatatayuan niya. He was staring at the moonlight. Mukhang sobrang lalim ng iniisip niya.

"Gab,"

He turned to me and forced a smile. He's my bestfriend and I know it's a forced one. Hindi naman plastik na ngiti pero halatang pilit.

"Lyn, do you have time to talk to me now?" He asked.

I don't know why that question meant too much for me. That question tells me a lot of how I was treating him before and even until now.

"You know, I'll always make time for you."

"You'll always make time for me huh? But for him, you'll always free your time whatever you're doing. No matter how important it is, you'll free your time for him."

Is there a difference? Freeing your time for someone and giving your free time to someone? I've never noticed such difference not until he had said it.

"Don't say that."

"Minsan Lyn, iniisip ko, bakit siya pa? Bakit yung kakambal ko pa? Bakit hindi na lang ibang tao?" He looked up in the sky again. "Hindi sana ganito kasakit kung hindi yung kapatid ko yung karibal ko."

"Ano bang meron sa akin para hayaan niyong masira ang samahan niyong dalawa ng dahil lang sa akin?" I bravely asked.

He looked surprised with my question. "Why are you asking me that?"

"Frankly speaking Gab, I'm not worth it. Hindi ako sapat na dahilan para masira ang samahan niyong dalawa. Para hayaan niyong mawala yung iningatan niyong relasyon na magkapatid? I'm not really worth it."

"But for us, it is."

Natigilan ako sa sinagot niya sa akin. Is he being serious right now?

"Why?" Nanatiling nakapako sa kanya ng paningin ko. "Kahit ako, hindi ko isusuko ang pamilya ko para lang sa lalakeng minamahal ko."

"That's you, Lyn. Ibahin mo kaming dalawa ni Tyler. Kaya naming isuko ang lahat para sa isang bagay na mahalaga at mahal naming dalawa."