Make Me Come

34th Ride

Author's Note: So, I am checking their quizzes while I'm updating and watching a series. Multi-tasking at it's peak. Ewan ko ba kung paano ko pa nagawang isingit ang pagtatype ng update. Anyways, it's how you managed your time anyways!

Make Me Come song of the day: One of a Kind by Kwon Ji Yong a.k.a G-Dragon

PS: Sundays is still the update schedule.

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I'm already back at the condo. Pagkadating ko dito, nagkulong lang ako ulit sa kwarto. My mind is drifting off again on that day. Tumayo ako mula sa kama at dumiretso sa vault. I entered the correct pin and opened it. Mula doon, kinuha ko ang kaisa-isang alaala ng mommy ko sa akin.

The ipod shuffle she gave me when she was killed right in front of me.

Hanggang ngayon, kapag naalala ko ang tagpong iyon ng buhay ko, naiinis ako sa sarili ko. Wala man lang akong nagawa noon para tulungan si mama.

I know for a child, it's unbearable to see your mom dying right in front of you. Up until this moment of my life, I still have a clear picture of what happened that day.

Binalik ko na sa vault ang ipod shuffle at tsaka nagtungo sa kusina para makahanap ng maiinom. I don't know why but I feel like drinking liquor tonight even if its something I'm not used to.

Perhaps it was the words that she said which encouraged me to drink. Hindi ko nga alam kung paano ko nagawang tagalan na tumayo sa harap niya at pakinggan ang lahat ng salitang lumalabas mula sa bibig niya.

On the ref, I saw a big bottle of vodka. Kinuha ko iyon at akmang isasara na ang pinto ng ref nang mapansin ko ang maliit na bote ng JDL sa gilid. Jacksenn once told me na malakas daw ang tama ng JDL. Kinuha ko iyon kasama ng vodka.

I just needed something that will help me forget for a while. Yung mga bagay na makakatulong sa akin para makalimot.

Luckily, wala si Brenda dito dahil pinatawag siya ng master niya. Ang paalam niya sa akin kanina, doon muna siya sa bahay ng master niya ng isang linggo. Pero alam ko namang sa isang linggo na 'yun, puro hokus pokus lang naman ang magaganap.

Dumiretso ako sa sala at tsaka umupo sa sofa na nakaharap sa floor to ceiling na glass window ng unit ko. It was just amazing to see the city lights that is somehow having a same picture of a sky filled with bright stars.

Kapag mga ganitong panahon, I really do miss mama. She really means a lot to me. Kahit na nalaman kong ninakaw lang nila ako mula sa tunay kong pamilya, that didn't stopped me for loving them like they're my real parents. They loved me so much to the point that mama sacrificed her life for me. That's beyond what a foster mom can do for an adopted daughter. Even my kuya is still treating me like I'm his real sister despite of the knowledge that I'm the major reason why mama died.

Isinalin ko ang vodka sa baso tsaka inisang lagok ang laman noon. Nang gumuhit ang mainit na likido sa lalamunan ko, naramdaman ko bigla ang pait na dumaan sa puso ko. It felt like the vodka just passed by my heart.

When the doorbell rang, I was too lazy to open the door for the visitor. Disoras na rin kasi ng gabi bakit may nadalaw pa?

When I opened the door, I was surprised to see Dan. Even if my vision is blurry, I'm quite sure that this is Dan. Si Dan lang naman ang binigyan ko ng access dito sa condo maliban pa sa mga binigyan ni Brenda ng access.

His forehead knotted into curls. "Why are you so flushed?" Napasinghap ako nang gumapang ang kamay niya sa bewang ko at nilapit ang mukha niya sa mukha ko. "You've been drinking. What's going on?"