Help (One Direction)

40. Until Then

Read A/N at the end.

Kathryn’s POV

Those words hit like a knife. I won’t last long? How long? I close my eyes, letting the burn ease as tears dripped down, I don’t think I’ll have enough tears to cry anymore. “What?” Paul sprang. Everyone else broke down, Liam stormed out of the room, followed by Zayn who coughed awkwardly and said he ‘had to go to the bathroom’ but I knew better, he tried to be strong but he couldn't break down in front of me. Louis then later followed, not mentioning who he followed. Niall dropped to the ground, his face in his hands. Harry, who was the last to give in, scrunched his brows as he stood there; trying to help himself up as he also hid his face in his hands.

“Can we donate blood?” Lou asks. Of course they can donate blood. What blood type do I have? I never knew, so I never cared, until now I guess. “She’s an O neg,” I’m an O negative? There was a blood type like that? I’ve never heard of it, all I knew was A, B, AB, and O.

“O negative?” Lou, Paul, Niall, and Harry looked at each other for answers, looking at me as well. “No one’s O negative, Louis’ just an O.” Harry says, sadly defeated. “Couldn't we get O negative anywhere?” Niall asks, opening up the choices, though there aren't many. The doctor takes his glasses off and wipes the sweat with his sleeves. “Our past patients were O negative and we used it for them, we haven’t had any donors for the past couple of months.”

“And she’s losing blood fast.” Niall bursts, screaming to the doctor to find a way, any way. Just then, Harry then told Niall to stop, telling them that he had hatched an idea.

“Can we do that?”

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Liam’s POV

I can’t do this anymore. I just can’t. She won’t last long, I can’t take it, no. I couldn't have her, and now she’ll have to leave me and the rest of the world, that just won’t do now, would it? I can’t have her permanently gone. It’s already hard hiding these feelings from her.

Yeah. I love the person who won’t love me back, and I haven’t put a stand to it. Louis has, and Kathryn loved Louis the way I wished I was loved by her. I've been very silent because I know she already has so much to think about, I don’t want to put up to her burden. It’s been hard you know? I really can’t kiss her the way Louis and Zayn did, just hug her and tell her I love her, though she’ll never really get my meaning of my ‘I love you’.

Can’t I just dissolve in this dark, empty pit I’m being dragged into?

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Zayn’s POV

She’s not going to last long and that’s what I’m afraid of. This is life and death we’re talking about. Part of my mind is telling me to leave her now, that she won’t do me any good, she’s going to break me with her leaving. That I’ll choose to walk away, not let her get into me so much that she’ll affect me gravely. To forget everything that happened.

And to think, I haven’t asked her to be my girlfriend. Everything planned for the past few days all disappeared in a blink of an eye, because of her. Asking her to be my girlfriend wouldn't do now, she has better things to think about than me, her life and how she’ll spend the few moments of it.

I look at myself in the mirror, taking in my facial features. How could I be so lucky to have a girl like Kathryn, you know? Out of all the people, she chose me. To be honest, I really didn't think she’d end up with me, I thought she’d be with anyone else in the band, just not me. But I was drawn to her, and the same for her towards me. I guess I was just lucky. But my luck wouldn't last long now, she passed by my life, now she’s leaving, like she was here for some reason and now she’s leaving.