Addicted (OITNB)

54- The Confrontation

THE FIRST THING I look for is Nicky once I have returned to the main part of the prison. My uniform feels like pyjamas, much comfier than jeans and dresses. I wasn't miserable at all about being back here. Sure, being on furlough was great and all, but I couldn't completely enjoy myself without Nicky there. I feel lonely without her.

I pick at the leftover eyelash glue that I couldn't get off no matter how hard I tried. It isn't noticeable, but I can feel it.

I could barely find anyone in the dorms, let alone outside. While standing around and looking lost, I see Snow coming towards me.

"She's in the laundry room changing the lights." He tells me.

I thank him and rush down the halls, excited to be able to kiss her again.

When I walk through the doors leading to the laundry, I immediately set eyes on her. Her back is facing me as she stands in front of the bench with a box of lights.

I sneak up to her and slide my arms around her waist, resting my cheek against her shoulder. She isn't startled at all, like she knows it is me.

"Hey." She says but doesn't turn around. She continues to unbox.

"I've missed you so much." I say, leaning sideways to take a good look at her face. Still as beautiful as ever.

"Yeah, me too." She says dully. I then remember the last time we spoke, and how it hadn't gone so well. I thought maybe she only felt angry that day, but I could tell she still was.

"Mm, you sure? Because it really doesn't seem like it." Nevertheless, I keep holding her.

"Well, I knew you'd be back so it isn't like some shock." She starts walking, forcing me unattached.

"That's true." I follow her. "And I know everything." I say, referring to Millie.

She climbs up a ladder and I immediately hold it still. I look up at her, waiting for some sort of affection, whether it's a smile or a comment. Anything but the blank look on her face right now.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"No." She says, concentration on her face.

"Really." I say but it doesn't sound like a question, more like disbelief.

"Yep."

"So you've just felt like shit for what, three days?"

"Four days, and pretty much." She descends down the ladder before folding it away.

"Maybe you should go see the nurse about that." I mumble. She ignores me and walks over to the box. I decide not to follow her.

"Can you just tell me what is wrong with you? I mean seriously, if it's not me then why do you keep on making it feel like it is?"

She turns around with the box in her hands, slowly walking backwards. "I've got to go, I have work to do, but if you're looking for a fuck then I'll be in the Chapel between lunch and dinner."

I frown as I watch her leave the room. Was she joking? I'm so confused. I thought we were more than just sex partners.

"I THINK I know what it is." Snow tells me. I've reached the point where I tell him everything since he seems to be able to come up with some good points.

"What?"

"You said that ever since you've been hanging around Gloria and all, she's been acting weird. She's probably jealous."