Solby One Shots ✔

55.I wanna kiss you so bad

Basorexia- strong craving or hunger for kissing. ( my boyfriend told me about this the other day and I was just like alright nice information and now get me my food 😊. I know I'm kinda mean 😂😂)

“Is everything okay?” Sam asked me with this look on his face saying 'he's being weird again'. I just sighed and nodded.

For past few days I wanted, no, I needed to kiss him. I don't know where that came from, but it was really overwhelming feeling.

However, I stopped myself. Why? Oh, that's because me and Sam are best friends and I don't want to ruin it. I know he's not into guys, and even if he was, he wouldn't like me in that way anyway. I mean, I'm nothing special. (I know that's so cliché but just go with it)

“Lets just watch that film, yeah?” I proposed, grabbing a TV remote. We were planing this 'movie night' for a while now, but at this moment I started to feel like it was a bad idea.

All I could think about was those full, pink, soft lips. I'd kiss them for the rest of my life if he'd just let me. And, sadly, it was also what I was staring at for the past few days. I just can't help myself!

Sam noticed that, yesterday I think, because since then he started giving me those suspicious looks. I try to control my craving, but it's getting harder to resist.

I was hoping it will go away after a while, but it's just getting stronger, and I'm scared that I'm going to kiss him, or just stop seeing him, so I wouldn't kiss him. Either way, I'd lose him, and that really makes me feel awful.

“Yeah, sure” The older had replied to my earlier question. Yeah, he was older. One year older. But that never really mattered. We were best friends since we met each other in band camp. Now I was 18 and he was 19 and we were still very close “So, what film are we going to watch first?” Sam asked a little more relaxed now.

I needed a while to recall what films I prepared. And I swear to you, at that moment I just forgot them all. I remembered they were horror films, we wanted to be scared that night. And sleep together.

Oh God! I just realized we were suppose to sleep together. Normally it wasn't a big deal, we did that a lot, but this night was different. What if I kiss him in my sleep? What if he wakes up and say that I'm weird, then just leave? What if he'll hate me forever?

“Colby?” I heard his soft voice and looked at him “Are you okay? You were staring at the floor with so much fear in your eyes...” He mumbled, watching me carefully. I took a deep breath. I can do it. I mean, it's not a big deal. I just want to kiss my best friends, I'm sure a lot of guys feel that way at least once in their live. Maybe Sam feels that way....?

No, he doesn't! Stop it! Focus on the films.

“It's nothing, I'm fine” I replied and bit my lower lip “It” I exclaimed suddenly and Sam looked at me questioningly “The first film we're going to watch. It's called 'It' ” I explained and he just nodded.

I just pressed 'Play', because I put the DVD in a player earlier today. I sighed as the film started. Oh no. Why? What have I ever done to you? I hate you so much. Ugh.

Yeah, these were my thoughts about the film. And you wanna know why? Because one of the first scenes was a couple making out in the woods. (It's probably not but I couldn't think of a movie where it actually is like that)

I glanced at Sam and he was watching the film, licking his lips. Oh yeah, little fucker. Because the film wasn't enough to tease me.

“I'm going to the bathroom, I'll be right back” I announced, but before he was able to say anything I already got up and left the living room. I walked to the bathroom and turned on the water, washing my face and looking at myself in a mirror “You can do this. I know you can. It's just stupid craving, nothing important. It doesn't matter. Just try not to think about it” I said to myself, then dried my face with a towel.