Shawn Mendes Imagines

My Saving Grace

• Shawn is back home from tour. You have exciting news, a surprise, to share with him, however he is the one to surprise you when he arrives home with his own news. •

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It was a few weeks after Shawn had left for the last leg of his tour when I found out that I was weeks pregnant. Wanting to wait until tour was over, and when he arrived home to tell him, I kept my pregnancy a secret. Shawn was always busy while on tour, so him and I didn't get to talk as much as we would have liked, but it did make it easier to keep my secret. Though I was nervous about Shawn's reaction upon hearing the news, I waited anxiously until the day he came home so that I could surprise him. However, instead of me surprising him when he walked through the door, it was him who surprised me with his own news.

"I think that we should take some time apart."

Shawn said, while rubbing his thumb along the back of my hand as though his touch would soften the blow. When I couldn't find the words, Shawn continued further, rambling on about how our relationship seemed to stall in the time we had spent apart. However, I was too bewildered to hear any of it. With the realization of his words, my stomach began to turn. I felt as though I was about to puke, as a sense of nausea came over me. I was unsure if it was his suggestion that had caused this feeling of sickness, or his child.
"I'm going to be sick." I mumbled, before quickly rising from the living room couch and running towards the nearest bathroom. Nearing the bathroom, my eyes began to glaze over as a result of my sadness. Concerned, Shawn was right behind me, following me into the bathroom despite my attempt to shut the door. Shawn reached forward for my hair, holding the strands back for me, just before I gagged into the toilet bowl. Nothing came out, as I assumed I had puked out everything I ate earlier that afternoon. When I was sure that I wasn't going to vomit, I motioned for Shawn to step back, causing him to drop the strands of my hair and back up.

I stayed in a crouched position, letting my built up tears cascade down my face, while my stomach still turned. I did not suppress my cries, letting them escape past my trembling lips, while clutching my stomach, which carried the half of him he had no clue about. I dared not to look at him, still stunned that he was wanting to end things between us. We left each other madly in love, at least that is what I had thought. I had not seen this breakup coming, and it tore me apart. Especially now, as I am carrying his child.
"Y/N," Shawn began, letting his voice drown in the sea of my cries. I shook my head, hoping he would catch on that I didn't want to hear anything he had to say at the moment. Feeling the throbbing pain of a headache coming on, I rested my forehead against the palm of my hand.

Feeling a sense of guilt, Shawn took a step forward and crouched behind me, before wrapping his arms around my trembling body. He rested his head against my shoulder, holding me tightly as an attempt to comfort me. Despite his comforting embrace, my tears still fell. And while another fell from my eye and rolled down my cheek, I admitted what I had been keeping from him all along.
"I'm pregnant." I whispered through a cry. As soon as my words processed within his mind, I felt Shawn's body tense up against mine. It took him a moment before he could speak.
"What?" Shawn questioned in disbelief, standing from his crouched position. He slowly backed away in shock, hitting his shoulder against the bathroom doorframe.
"How," he began, "When," he decided, "Why," he was about to ask, but he didn't even know where to begin. "Why haven't you said anything?" He asked, when he had decided on a question, with hurt evident within his words.
"I wanted to surprise you." I replied, about to stand. Before I could get up, Shawn stepped forward, helping me stand as though I was too precious and fragile to do it on my own. As soon as I found my balance, I pulled my hands out from his, letting my arms fall at my sides.