Heaven's Child ≫ SPN

25.1

"I know you feel responsible for this woman—" Dean began again.

We were in the hospital waiting outside Mrs.Doug's room. I counted three doctors and at least five nurses rush inside with a bunch of medical supply, and the few terms I caught didn't sound good. Things like "breach" and "low EKG" and "brain damage."

I rolled my eyes at Dean but kept my gaze strictly to my feet.

"But we've done the most we can. Doctors say we won't be able to tell how she's doing until at least few hours. There's no reason for us to camp here. We need to find Thomas. We'll be back then."

"You leave. I'm staying here."

He paused a little. "Alright," he grunted as he stood. "I'm going to go check on Sam and then we're going to look for Thomas. Call us if you want to join us."

"How? You took my phone, remember?" I looked at him coldly, even though he didn't deserve any of the anger I was feeling.

He studied me for a second before he took a step closer and said, "Remember that we're not the bad guys here, alright? We care about you, Eliza, and you care about us just the same. Frankly, I've had it up to here with your attitude. I'm sure Sam and Cas would agree with me." And then be pulled out his phone and threw it on the seat beside me before he spun on his heel and left me in the dull hospital hallway all by myself.

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After two hours of silence, a second team of nurse and doctors rushed into Mrs.Doug's room, the doctors shouting orders and instructions.

"What's going on?" I sprinted to my feet, my heart reacting immediately. But no one answered me. I tried to follow them in her room, but I was stopped abruptly by an exhausted nurse.

"I'm sorry—we can't have you in—"

"What's going on? Is the baby okay?"

Someone shouted her name and she looked back at the chaos happening inside with a troubled look. "I can't really say. I'm sorry I have to—"

"Alright, alright. Go...do your job." She gave me a tight smile and quickly turned around as the door closed behind her. "I'll be here," I muttered to no one.

I let myself slide to the floor, feeling completely useless and helpless. I wondered what the hell I was thinking. I should've gone with Dean to help search for Thomas. I couldn't do anything here. But then a part of me knew that Thomas as well as Philip and the twenty other kids were probably way past saving. What the hell were we supposed to do with twenty new vampire kids anyway? Execute them all and somehow call ourselves the good guys? Were we supposed to let them live and prey on people?

In the end, I realized, it didn't matter either way. I couldn't protect the kids, the angels, or even Mrs.Doug. I couldn't save any of them.

I let out a small laugh. I didn't know who was more of a jackass here; me for believing for just a second that I could kill Alec and save everyone or Gabriel for choosing me.

My head fell in my hands and I squeezed at my temples, forcing the bad thoughts away. Rushed bustling sounds were coming my way along with two voices when I looked up.

"The doctors are with her right now, I can't really say."

"Can't I see her?" It was a woman who looked in her mid fifties. Her eyes were red and her voice was shaking, like she'd been crying her entire way here.

"Not yet, I'm sorry. Agent Collins was the one who rushed her to the hospital." That's when I stood up with pursed lips. I gave a nod to the nurse escorting her and an awkward wave to the old woman.