Love Gamble

Chapter 49: His Real Thoughts

Leonard's POV

"Denisse! Lumaban ka!"

Napapikit ako ng mariin nnag mabalik ako sa reyalidad.

Hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan ang unang pagkikita namin ni Denisse. I will always go back to that moment when I first felt strange things inside my system. Strange things that made my heart fluttered. Strange things that made insects in my stomach went wild. Strange things that signified my feelings for her.

I was very happy when I saw her again on BNI. Sinungitan ko siya. What was I thinking? Argh. I didn't know what to do because I was freaking nervous back then. Tsk.

"Hi Denisse. Be ready."

>>Send

That was my first ever text message I sent to her. I don't know the real meaning behind that. Perhaps, she should be ready for me? Or she should be ready to open her heart for me to come inside? It's either the two.

"Wear this and I hope you'll be okay. They will continue to bully you but I am always here for you."

I still remember that day when you were bullied. It was too late when I found out. I want to go to you and hug you but I'm worried that you'll be uncomfortable or even terrified. Baka isipin mong FC ako.

That's why I just decided to buy you some clothes and place a letter to it.

You can't love him.

Argh. I must be out of my mind when I said that. Natakot lang siguro ako na tuluyan ka nang mahulog kay Prince. Yes. You can't love him. Dapat ako lang. Tsk.

"Eherm, ah... Paalala lang 'no? Birthday party ang pupuntahan natin... hindi lamay."

I want to laugh when you said that to me. You're a little bit funny, you know? I like that.

"Eh di'ba ikaw na nagsabi? Nakakapagod ding ipagtanggol at alagaan ang isang tulad ko?"

No. No. It's not that. Ang gusto ko lang ay maging matapang ka para maipagtanggol ang sarili mo. Na marealize mong kailangan mo ring ipagtanggol ang sarili mo dahil sa mundong ito, hindi sa lahat ng oras ay may karamay ka. Naranasan ko na 'yan noon pero mali siguro ang pagkakasabi ko. Mali ako. Nandito ako. Poprotektahan kita sa magulong mundo na 'to.

But did I really succeed on protecting you?

"Life has a way to hurt us and it never fails."

>>Send

I sent that message to you because I think I'm always hurt when I see you talking with Prince, especially that I knew you like him. I'm so jealous.

"You're hurting me, you know?"

>>Send

Oh. That message. That was the time when I secretly staring\looking at you from a far. I could see you and Andrea talking about someone. She asked you if you're already in love with Prince. I thought your answer was yes that's why I felt very hurt. I felt a bit defeated.

But nah. I won't give up on you.

"Bakit ba ikaw na lang parati ang nasa tabi ko tuwing may problema ako?"

You asked me that when you're having a hard time talking and facing your father. Yes. I care for you. And I want to be the man whom you will think of when you have a problem. 'Cause love, I'm here for you...

But... I'm very disapponted at myself because I was not able to protect you from Julius. I'm sorry, love.

"I'm glad you're fine. Good night."

>>Send

That message was the time when you just got home from a dinner with Prince's family. I knew that because he told me. How kind of him, right? That was also the time when you called and I was keeping myself from replying to whatever you were saying. I was smiling like an idiot when I heard your voice because it was the last thing that I heard before I slept that night.

"I said go."

I was shocked when you went to my house that day. Tinaboy kita. It was a wrong move. I didn't want you to go.

I need you, Denisse.

"Kasi mahal kita!"

My heart still flutters and the insects in my stomach go wild everytime I remember that. At last! That was the moment I've been waiting for! For you to say that you love me, too.

"And what makes you think na may meaning ang lahat ng ginagawa ko?!"

Oh no. I was wrong.

"Walang ibig sabihin 'yun, Denisse! Okay?! Don't be assuming!"

I'm sorry for that. I didn't mean to hurt you but that was my way for you to avoid me and for Julius to stop bothering you. He knew that you're very important to me.

"Tss. Denisse, hindi ko alam na aabot ng ganyan ang nararamdaman mo dahil lang sa mga ginawa ko. Naaawa lang ako sa iyo, okay? Actually, nakakapagod na nga eh. Masyado kang mahina."

I won't ever get tired of protecting you. I am very grateful that finally, I won your feelings.

"Huwag kang maging assuming kung ayaw mong masaktan. I don't like you Denisse. I will never love you."

I was lying Denisse. I hope you'll forgive me for that mistake.

"Tama na Leonard. N-nasasaktan na ako."

I know. I know. I'm sorry. I just wanted you to be safe. Safe from the danger I'm involved.

"Her father is dead at baka siya na ang isusunod ko."

I was frustrated and terrified when Julius sent me that f*cking letter. I was very confused that time that's why I said those things. I'm sorry. I just want you to be safe. I want to protect you.

~And I'm in love
And I'm terrified
For the first time
In the last time
In my only life~

You have a very good singing skills that I was swayed and fluttered when I watched your video. Thank you for telling me you love me. Thank you because I am the one. Thank you for letting me win your heart.

Love, I hope, when you wake up, you'll still gamble for love.

If you'll still play the love gamble, I am willing to gamble with you.

So please wake up. Don't leave me. I need you. Please.

"Denisse! Huwag mo kaming iwan!" I heard Tita Marissa screamed.

Isang manipis na linya ang nakita ko sa monitor na nakapagpatigil ng ikot ng aking mundo. Wala akong magawa kundi ang isigaw ang pangalan mo kasabay ng pagbuhos ng aking luha.

'What's the most regretful thing you've ever done in your life?'

Naaalala ko pa ang tanong mo sa akin at masasagot ko na ito ngayon: Ang hindi ko nasabing... MAHAL KITA.

Hi! How's this chapter? Hope you'll still enjoying the story. And 'yung mga naka-italicize, meron yan sa mga nakaraang chapters. Doon ko kinuha. And yung 'What's the most regretful thing you've ever done in your life?', nasa Chapter 42 po 'yun kung hindi niyo naaalala. Ayun lang naman! Bye!

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