Sally can wait

in it together

October 2000

Some say that you only find Pease within others if you find piece in yourself and if that's the truth then i guess I have forgiven myself for the wrongs I've gone through in my life.

I never expected to be in the position I was in. i certainly hadn't expected that I would be here with the people I was with. Liam had come home from tour, and all I could think of was how happy he was home. It was inevitable that I missed him Every time he left but this time was the worst. I felt lost and when he came home i remembered just how much i love him.

He was home a few times between tours of diffrent states and country's. I had seen him play some amazing UK shows and that made me happy to be living his dreams with him. I loved him even though he made mistakes, I have to admit I made mistakes too, fuck who doesnt make mistakes, especially in marriage.

"Where are you living?" Liam asked his brother. We were all in the living room in silence taking in the information.

"Booked an hotel for a few weeks till i can find an apartment, sort out the papers and get custody of Anais sorted and that" he said. I sighed and shook my head. I couldn't believe this was happening. I thought Meg and Noel were finally sorting things out.

"I'm so sorry Noel, I hope you're ok" i said rubbing his shoulder.

"Its fine, something's come to an end and we gotta move on" he said shugging.

"Uncle Noeley" Flo said as he crawled on the couch beside him. She was getting so big and it was nice to see her speak and grow. Liam got to see the things he missed when Lennon was growing up.

"Sup little nutter?" He asked. Florance giggled and gave him a hug. It was sweet. Noel smiled but i could tell he wasnt feeling like family time. Liam stood up and grabbed Flo while tickling her.

We all sat around talking for a while until Lennon came in. Football boots still on.

"Oi, that carpet cost me a fortune and you're rubbing dirt into it, what you playing at?" Liam asked as Lennon shugged and walked off huffing. He's just turned 11 and to say he's being difficult would be an understatement.

"Lennon" I said. He turned and drew his eyes off me.

"What" he asked. I sighed.

"Take the boots off" I said pointing to the mud trails on the white carpet.

"Piss off" he said storming away. I shook my head.

"LENNON" I shouted him back but he didn't return.

"What's all that about then?" Noel asked. Me and Liam both shook our heads as he handed Flo to me.

"Donno mate fucking puberty or sommit" he said dunno running after him.

"Listen I'm going to head off anyway" Noel said as Flo started crying for lia5m to come back.

"Are you sure you're alright?" I asked. He nodded kissing my head and Flos.

"I will be, don't worry about it." I nodded as he walked out. I got off the couch and headed up with Flo to see what was wrong with Lennon.

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Lennon had been grounded for a week for speaking to me and Li like idiots he didn't tell us what was going on. I wanted to protect him from the world. He was my baby boy but he was getting older and it was hard to keep him away from hearing about what his dad was up to. Or what his uncle was going through.

Me and liam were in bed talking about it.

"I just feel like an idiot Liam, I can't get him to talk to me. I don't know what's going on with him" I said as liam sat behind me with his arms wrapped around me and his head on my shoulder.

"He's just getting bigger innit, give him some time he'll talk eventually babe" he told me. I wasn't convinced but i had to believe he was ok. He was my son and no mater what him and Flo come first in my life.

"Give us a kiss" liam said I nodded and kissed his lips quickly. He turned me around and I smiled as he looked I to my eyes.

"I'm worried about him" I said. Liam sighed.

"He's fine Sally, stop worrying" he said kissing my lips this time. He moved my hair behind my head and smiled at me.

"Maybe we could get Noel to talk to him, there close right" I said.

"What the fuck does Noel need to talk to him for. He's my fucking kid, he's fine he just needs space Sally" liam told me hugging me. I nodded before he kissed my forehead again. "I love ya yeah" he said smiling. I nodded.

"I love you too babe" i said hugging myself around him.

"You've sent me all soft you have" he laughed hugging me in. I slapped his chest and Laughed.

"Shut the fuck up" I told him.

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Short update, but dig things coming soon I promise