Part of me wants you to feel what I did.
Find someone smarter,
Prettier,
Kinder,
and who does everything you didn't.
Just so you can hurt too.
It's wrong of me, and I'd never hurt another innocent person just to get back at someone,
But i won't lie and say that it's never crossed my mind.
I shouldn't feel like i need to,
But i want to prove myself.
That i'm no toy.
That I was worth it.
I shouldn't feel like that, but i do.
I shouldn't feel like I need to show you loss.
I know I don't have to.
I want to.
I want you to remember the old good times and hate yourself for it.
I want you to get angry when you see me happy with someone new.
I want you to stare at old pictures of us past midnight.
I want you to wonder why she isn't you,
Then realize you're why.
Then, I want you to realize it's too late.
Text me with small talk,
Then get disappointed when I reel you in, only to throw you even farther out than before.
I'm sick for it, but a part of me wants you to hurt too.
An eye for an eye, I guess.
I don't want to be just another name on your list.
I wanna be that name.
That name that every-time you hear, hurts a little.
Not because you don't want to remember, but because you can't seem to forget it.
I don't want you at all anymore,
but I just want you to want me.
Just so you don't get everything you want for once.
For all the toys before me.
It's fucked up, I know.
Every part of me knows better,
But a part of me still wants to.
