I never realized it, but I'm just like you.
Maybe thats why I hated you.
I hate myself, so it'd only make sense.
Every time I look at you, I see the parts i despise in me.
I never liked mirrors.
Its so much easier to just walk away than face them.
Just like you.
I'd rather just walk away than fight for or against you.
Why face the problem if I don't have to?
I rather just hate you and distance myself.
Sometimes I want to yell and tell you exactly what you are, but who would I be?
I'm no different.
The only difference is I learned, I felt,
and I changed.
I tell myself i'm different, that I'm nothing of the sort, but here I am.
No matter how hard I try to run and pretend, I'll never forget.
I've been honest about it.
No matter what, I always will be.
I'll never paint myself to be what i'm not.
If i'm what you need to look into to see yourself, maybe you should walk away too.
I'll forever be sorry, but I won't forever be this way.
Some days I forget, but then I see you and it's a mirror.
All my wrongs, all my mistakes.
Originally written June 23rd, 2018
