Jamilton Oneshots // Hamilton ✔️

James Reynolds [JAMILTON] [PART TWO // ANGST]

i'm getting more reads per chapter and i'm genuinely proud of myself and very happy people read this. thank you, random person who is probably here for reading about alex and thomas l o v i n g and not to read this-
homophobic stuff and phrases
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It takes Thomas a moment to push me away. It takes me a moment to realize the look on his face is a look of disgust and hatred. It takes me a moment to remember that Thomas is homophobic and did an entire speech on why people who were part of the LGBT community were all idiots and faggots.

I'm so stupid, how could I forget?

"W-Wait!" I yell, but Thomas has already stood up. He gives me a kick to my stomach, a hard one. I wince and glance up at him. My heartbeat is off the charts and my face is probably very red from hurt, but I grab his leg anyway, "Please, stay!"

I don't even quite know why I want him to stay.

He's homophobic. He doesn't like me. I don't deserve him, right?

Or maybe he's kind of right.

Maybe that's why I beg him to stay, because I take back being trans. No, I'm not trans. I'm just a girl. A girl named Alexa Hamilton, born a female in January of my birth year. Alexa Hamilton. Alexa Hamilton.

Thomas is leaving after shaking me away from him, leaving me left behind. He leaves me on the floor, my hands shaking, and my eyes red and poofy. Tears are falling down my ugly face and I find my arms, covered in blood. I don't even know how they got to be like that. I probably scratched.

I never tell anyone I'm transgender again. Mostly because I'm not transgender.

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basic thing for people who didn't understand;

so alex is trans and he thinks hes trans but when thomas rejects him as trans, alex is so madly in love he stops identifying himself as trans and lives the rest of his life being someone he isn't suppoused to be.

sad.

i've written better angst- this is rushed i'm sorry i had to do homework in like ten minutes and i wanted to watch shane