Jamilton Oneshots // Hamilton ✔️

Touch [JAMILTON]

requested by my friend, because everyone is my friend

but dedicated to RainisStupid because i dedicate everything to her-

alex has a stutter in this because i felt like it

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Alex rolls onto the bed, throwing down his phone on the floor. The lights from the restroom are still on and the door is open. Where Alex was lying, he could make out Thomas's shirtless body. He was brushing his teeth while humming along to a song Alex did not recognize.

When he caught Alex staring at him, the taller man winked. He then proceeded to finish up with brushing his teeth, dik the lights, and walk over to the bed Alex was occupying. They were roommates and Thomas had his own bed, but as a couple, they did not sleep by themselves in the same room.

Thomas slipped under the covers.

They were silent for a few minutes, the only sound of the heavy breathing they were both doing. Alex was red, even though he had slept with Thomas before. His boyfriend always made him nervous. Alex couldn't help it. Thomas wasn't red, but was slowly inching towards Alex.

Alex could tell.

"Tom-Tommy? Can you not sleep with your hands ar- around me? It's uncomfortable an-and hot and-and sweaty." Alex mumbled out, embarrassed at his stutter. He always seemed to have a stutter. It was there when he began talking and even after speech therapy, it was still there.

Thomas looked at his boyfriend's bare back. Even in the dark, he could still somehow make it out. Then he sighed and turned over on his side, leaving their backs to face each other.

Only then did Thomas speak.

"Alex? Do you not trust me?"

On his side of the bed, Alex curled into a ball.

"I-I do." He mumbled tiredly.

"Trust me, please." Thomas answered, tiredly as well.

They both had had a long day. Alex and Thomas were in college. Alex had to present, which was always nerve racking for him because of his dreaded stutter. Thomas had just come back from a presentation as well, but just learning sort of drained him.

Alex was cute when he did his presentations, in Thomas's view. The teacher would call Alex's name and Alex would walk up to the front of the classroom. His eyes would search for Thomas or one of his friends. If no one he knew was in the class, he would look up at wall above the highest sitting students and talk.

His stutter would fall out of his mouth, but he never stopped. His face would be red from embarrassment, but he never stopped. He would continue looking at the person or wall. And if you were that person, you had to show Alex you cared. You had to send him thumbs up, because he would get nervous no one liked it.

When he would be all done, the classroom would erupt into applause. It would be one of the most intriguing and interesting presentations they would hear all their life. This was a true fact.

Ignoring his thoughts of Alex's presentation, Thomas slowly inched towards his boyfriend again. This time, he wrapped his arms around the small figure of Alexander, but he practically threw Thomas off. Alex kicked his boyfriend in the crotch and punched his stomach.

When Thomas went back to his side of the bed with tears in his eyes, Alex spoke.

"I wa-want to trust you." He whispered.

"I know, Lex." Thomas said softly. He knew why Alex didn't trust him. After the abuse he went through when James Reynolds was his boyfriend, Alex didn't trust anyone. He had built these rules that didn't let Thomas get further than kissing his lips once a day.

It had only gotten worse the more Alex was reminded of those times.

"Sorry." Alex chocked out, somehow holding in his stutter.

Thomas nodded on his side, not answering.

They fell asleep like that.

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The next day, Alex got into bed before Thomas, as usual. He watched as Thomas pulled on pajama pants and as he brushed his hair. He watched as Thomas took his baby blue toothbrush and brushed his teeth. He watched as Thomas dimed the restroom lights.

He stopped watchimg as Thomas slipped under the covers.

"Do you trust me, Lex?" He asked quietly.

Alex nodded, then realized Thomas couldn't see him.

"Y-Yeah."

Thomas nodded as well, inching closer to Alex until his arms were around him.

Alex turned to face his boyfriend and Thomas looked down at his boyfriend.

"Sorry for ki-kicking ya."

"It's ok. My stomach still hurts."

"Oh..." Alex looked down, ashamed.

"You can make it better but cuddling with me."

"Oh...!"

They fell asleep like that.

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