Jamilton Oneshots // Hamilton ✔️

Anniversary [JAMILTON]

i bet y'all came here thinking "this'll be the anniversary of alex and thomas, right?' WRONG. IT IS THE ANNIVERSARY OF ALEX'S MOM'S DEATH, HAVE FUN

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Alex slithers out of my arms early in the morning, waking me up. I don't actually show me being awake though and just keep my eyes open a bit to see what he'll do. He goes into our restroom and I hear a razor, probably him shaving. Then I remember... Today is his mother's death anniversary.

"Alex!" I yell, shoving the covers off of me and running into the restroom.

But Alex is just shaving. Shaving his legs. There's a cut from him shaving on his leg and a bit of blood on the bathtub. He's wearing a sweater and jeans that he rolled up to shave.

"Oh, Alex." I mutter, hugging him.

"Um, Thomas?" He asks, "What did you think I was doing?"

I pause, "Uh... Cutting."

"Oh."

Suddenly, I remember what he did last year. He hid it with sleeves and disguised his using the ravor as shaving. Later that day, while he was changing, I saw his cuts.

"Alex," I demand softly, holding my hands out, "Wrists."

He stares up at me, a look of disbelief and disgust dancing on his face. I have to admit, he's a great actor. But I can see past those unfeeling eyes and cold, harsh, fake smile. My boyfriend is faking his happiness around me and that's not okay. He's not okay.

"Thomas, I didn't cut!" Alex says harshly, standing up and putting the razor on the bathroom counter.

"Alex!" I yell, "Wrists!"

"No!" Alex sounds like a child right now, honestly. His face is a burning red because he knows I know.

Finally, I just grab Alex's arms and pull up his sleeve. Sure enough, his wrists are lined with cleany cut cuts with blood coming out. I take them softly and wash them until the blood stops coming off. I don't say a word, because I don't know what to say to him.

When I look up finally, silent tears are gliding down his cheeks.

"Hey..." I mumble. He doesn't respond, just buries his face in my chest. I'm surprised at first, but wrap my arms around his thin body, "Are you okay?"

"Yeah," He says after a bit, sniffling, "I'm o-okay."

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