Astral Convergences

"You're not allowed to leave my hand"

C pov

i told Shannon my idea for the party.everybody has to come in denim clothes.she agreed..i'm really excited..in a few days it's my birthday..and the most incredible thing is that it's also the love of my life's birthday..it's so romantic and i still can't believe how lucky i am.we're laying on the couch of her living room with the girls,watching some videos from youtube.i love this..being surrounded by friends,enjoying little moments and cuddling under a cover.it makes me feel safe.while the cold is outside,i'm here,protected by love.when it's dark,we get up to go to a movie.when we pull up to the theater,Shannon leaves my hand.she comes back with a giant bucket of popcorn,two cokes and a bunch of snacks.i raise my eyebrow,she kisses me  "i know that you can't watch a movie without these"  "you're making me fat"   i reply with a pout   "you're perfect baby"  she says smiling.we go to our seats  "you're telling me this because you love me"   i cross my arms , she laughs  "you're so cute"  and repeatedly kisses my cheek  "and it's not just because i love you..you're my baby and i want to make you happy"  i cuddle into her arms as the lights go down.when the first act of  the beauty and the Beast ends,i look down,seeing that mine and Shannon's hands have been intertwined all the time.she kisses my cheek  "are you liking the movie?"  she asks   "yes..she's falling in love with him,without realizing it.you can't control your feelings or decide who to fall in love with"   "this sounds like a bisexual proclamation"   Amy adds,making us all laugh   "i don't agree..i mean yes...we can't control our feelings but if your head decides that you want that person...it's like a sort of control,isn't it?"  Meghan asks..we look at each other...what is she talking about?the second act starts and we turn our attention to the movie.when the movie is over,Shannon takes my hand and exits the theater.  "okay girls,i need food..."  Alex tells us  "what about tacos?"  i ask with a happy face  "yes...come on" .

we just ordered our food. "hey girls..i forgot to tell you...i've been nominated for an award"  Shannon says to our friends  "what??"  "girl!"  "tell us everything"  Alex,Amy and Jess got impressed.  "it's the LGBT british award...but don't be too happy..i think i have no chance to win"  "you're so annoying..you have everything you want...Cari,youtube,prizes..."  Meghan words are so non-Meghan.we just look at her...something is going on with her.

we came back at Shan's apartment.i'm in her room,looking at my phone.she comes out of the bathroom  "what are you doing?"  "nothing..i'm on facebook"  she simply nods.maybe she's more open about my dressing but since i have more followers she became more jealous.she gets under the cover,surrounding me with her arms  "who is this?"   "a friend"  "what does he want?"  "we're talking about the party,i invited him"  "oh."  i  keep talking with this guy and some minutes later,Shannon speaks again  "why does he keep asking about his clothes?if he looks cool?men just can't keep it in their pants"  i roll my eyes   "babe...why do you always see men hitting on me?"  "because that's how it is..men hit on you.if we take a look on your DMS we can see it..but it's better we don't...i don't wanna get nervous before bedtime"  i put my phone on the nightstand,turning my body to her  "babe...this guy isn't hitting on me.he likes Carter...he's asking me for advice to impress him"   she stays silent with her straight face...i give her a kiss  "Shanbee?"  no response..i put half of my body on her,touching and kissing her  "come on baby..."  "Ca-Cari...this is unfair...you can't use sex...oooh....."  she slips her tongue in my mouth as i keep touching her.

Partytime

i just woke up...i'm staring at the ceiling..i just turned 23..i think immediately about my girlfriend..i take my phone..no texts from her...i check her last entrance...she's awake...why didn't she write to me?first minutes of my birthday and i already don't like it...i get up in a bad mood.when Alex sees me she hugs me and kisses me,i force a smile  "i made breakfast for you"  i sit checking my phone again...a few people wrote on the wall of her facebook and she answered them...what is she doing?i'm nervous..."hey sis...what is it?"  "Shannon didn't text me..she's already awake"  "well...maybe she's in the shower"  "she had the time to answer people on fucking facebook"  "hey hey calm down..call her"  "she was my first thought when i woke up..."   "call her..there must be an explanation..she adores you"  i sigh,calling her...when the last ring echoes,my anger comes out  "oh Shannon,you'll regret it"  "come on Cari,let's eat..we can handle this, later".