Astral Convergences

Thunder and rainbows

S pov

Cari's tour is going well.she already performed in three cities.it's all insane..seeing people freaking out for my wife makes me proud but also gives me the weirdest sensation.the bus is driving through the streets of the nation..the sky is grey today.i reach Cari on the bed..she has a notebook in her hands..our daughter is laying next to her. "what are you doing,babe?"  i ask her  "i'm writing some ideas..for a song"  she replies..i try to take a peek but she takes the notebook away  "nosey Shanbee..you can't read yet"  "why?"  "because it's not ready..it's just an idea for a song"  "what is it about?"  "umm..i'm writing about true love"  i smile,leaving a kiss on her cheek  "i let you write,then.bye". i get up and go to the driver  "hey,how're you doing?"  "i'm fine..but sometimes i need a beer,desperately"  we laugh  "come on..tonight you'll rest"  "yeah..i just hope those clouds won't bother us"  "yes,i saw them earlier.."  "don't worry,kid.i drove in worse condition..your wife's concert is safe"  "i know..i just don't want my daughter to experience the severe weather on a bus in the middle of a storm"  he smiles  "you're a great mom..and your wife as well.i'm so happy to be the driver of this fantastic family"  i pat his shoulder  "we're happy to have you too". 

i reach the band mates on the little living room..they are playing Cari's songs.i grab some beers ..they take a break and i start talking with them  "how do you feel?"  "great.i'm having fun..this tour is incredible..i've never experienced something like this"  Chris replies  "yeah,even though i miss my family..but playing in front of all those people is something..unrealistic."  Cam adds and then asks me  "what about you?it must be weird seeing your wife being others people's idol"  "kind of.i'm the first fan..but yes..there's something weird in seeing the person that you share your private life with and know all of her strange habits,being a star.but i'll get used to it". a violent thunder interrupts our chat,making me jump on the couch.not long after,a loud cry fills our ears  "fuck..". i stand up and go to my bedroom..as i get closer,the cry becomes louder..i hear Cari's voice  "hey baby..calm down..mom's here..Shannon!"  i open the door  "i'm here,baby". June is crying desperately in Cari's arms who's pouting..i kiss my baby's head multiple times..Cari is caressing her back but she keeps crying.. "she's scared..she never heard thunder"  "i know..come on,baby..your moms are here.we're gonna protect you..forever"  i tell,trying to calm myself, firstly. "what about singing to her?"  i suggest..my wife nods and starts singing..now it's fully raining..there's a thunderstorm outside.June hides herself into Cari's chest..she stops singing  "i don't know what to do"  "maybe i have an idea"  i tell her,standing up.i grab my laptop and come back to them..i put my headphones upon June's ears,earning a bad look from my wife  "Shannon..you'll make her deaf"  "don't worry..i'll keep the volume very low". i click in my favorite video..and in a few seconds,the footages of our wedding are on the screen..Cari smiles,looking at me. "look,June..there's mama here"  i point to my wife,drawing my daughter's attention.she stops crying,eventually,listening to the music.we laugh at Cari's dad interview about his emotions..we hold our baby.. "your grandpa is an icon"  my wife tells her..the baby is completely hypnotized by the video..she smiles, seeing her uncle and her aunt.. "aw,is that uncle Bobby?"  i ask her,kissing her tiny hand afterwards.

"this fucking weather is weird"  Cari tells me  "it's summertime and it's fucking coming down"  "the weather has nothing to do with this"  i tell her,making her raise her eyebrows  "maybe it was a bad idea going on tour with a little baby"  "Shannon..where is this coming from?"  i sigh  "she's tired.she needs her routine.she's just a baby"  "umm..i don't know what to say..yes,she's a baby..she needs a bed and her moms..she has all of this.maybe you're tired because you have to take care of her all day"  she gets up,going away angrily.i put my hands on my face,taking a deep breath..i look at my daugher,who's sucking her pacifier,watching our wedding's video  "i just made mommy mad"  she smiles  "i know.i'm an idiot.."  the baby smiles wider  "oh yes?mom's an idiot?come here,little chicken"  i take her in my arms,kissing her sweet cheeks.i lay down..she starts torturing my face  "ouch..is this my punishment for upsetting mommy?"  the baby mumbles something,grabbing my hair..Cari enters right in this moment..i can see sweetness in her eyes for the view she is in front of. "mommy came back..say hello"  i tell,grabbing June's hand..my wife rolls her eyes  "don't use our daughter to soften me"  i sigh  "i knew who i was marrying that day.come here,princess..i love you and your personality"  i try to hug her but she pulls away  "this has nothing to do with my personality.you blamed me for taking our daughter in tour..am i dreaming?you chose to be here"  "Cari..i didn't blame anyone..well..not you..but us.i was wondering if we did good..just that.it's normal having doubts when you're a parent.i doubt every single choice i have to make..because i don't know if it will affect our baby..you're incredible,you always know what's right for her.i look at you,admiring this amazing mother you are..i'm so proud of you..i wanna be at least the half of you"  "Shan..it's not true"  she puts her hands on my shoulders  "June adores you.you make her happy.you're the best mom she could ever ask for.you take care of us with generosity.you wake up everyday,giving us all the love we need.you never complain..and i.."  she starts crying  "hey,my love..why are you crying?"  "i don't know..i'm overwhelmed with your love"  she nuzzles her face into my chest..i hold her tightly,kissing her head  "i love you so much,baby.i never meant to hurt you"  "i know"  she replies,crying.i pull away,placing my hands on her face  "hey,stop,baby.do you want to cuddle with us?"  she nods,wiping away her tears.we lay on our bed..she places her head on my chest..i surround my daughter with my arm,feeling extremely lucky for my family.