Astral Convergences

"All the love in the world"

S pov

the woman in front of me smiles  "Shannon.."  "i know..i know.."  i stand up and grab my jacket..she walks me to the door..i turn around  "...so..."  "i hope to see you soon"  i just nod..i move to go away but she stops me  "hey..you know why you're doing this"  "yes...".

i get in my car and take a deep breath..i'm overwhelmed.when i step into my apartment,Cari is singing,doing the laundry..i smile and place a kiss on her lips..then i go to my daughter who's smiling at me,from her high chair,opening her arms  "aww,hi little princess..did you miss me?"  she screams and i kiss her sweet cheeks.she becomes every day prettier... "do you wanna play with me?"  i ask her,taking her in my arms  "can you bathe her?"  Cari stops me before i sit down on the rug  "umm.yes..". i go to June's bathroom to prepare the bathtub and her little toys..i make sure the water is lukewarm and then i start undressing my daughter.she starts whining  "come on,babygirl...you love bathing with mama..". i make her sit on the bathtub...she whines a little but as she sees the little duck she lets out a huge groan  "oh,we have miss Goose Beak here..look,she wants to swim with you"...June starts laughing and my heart is filling with the purest happiness..the sound of her laugh is the most beautiful thing ever created.

half an hour later

"Shannon,what are you doin-"  Cari cuts herself,entering the bathroom.. "aww,you're a baby"  "i don't know what you're talking about"  i reply,blowing the water with my mouth,inside the bathtub.. Cari sits on the edge of it  "i needed a shower,so i took the opportunity to do it with June.we're having fun,aren't we?"  the baby slaps her hand on the water,splashing my face..she and Cari laugh  "oh baby...this is the end for you"  i say,starting tickling June's stomach. 

"come on..the baby is trembling"  Cari says,taking June's small bathrobe..i stand up,grabbing our daughter who cries feeling the difference of the temperature out of the water  "mommy's here,my love"  Cari starts wiping her  "hey,what about me?i'm cold"  i protest..Cari looks at me and shrugs  "grab a towel"  "you're so kind baby,thank you"  i tell her sarcastically.i wipe my body and put my clothes on..then i reach Cari who's dressing June  "aww,look at this charming baby..who's the prettiest girl on earth?"  my baby smiles,moving her legs  "Shannon stop..if she keeps moving,i put the diaper in a wrong way"  "i'm sorry,i'm sorry"  "take the pacifier,please"  "yes,ma'am". she places a soft kiss on June's stomach and i put the pacifier into my daughter's small lips. "okay...i was waiting for you"  "for what?"  i ask her  "we have to go to the travel agency,did you forget?"  "umm...no...of course.."  "Shannon...you forgot ..i know that face"  i try to smile..Cari sighs and adds  "whatever.. June's ready..i'm ready.let's go".

we're sitting in front of a woman..with June in the stroller who screams and mumbles every two minutes  "so...what kind of honeymoon do you want?"  "i want to visit another continent,to be honest..i don't know..Australia"  Cari tells  "i'll show you the packages". the woman starts typing on her laptop and i turn to my fiancee  "baby...are you sure?we have June..she's so little"  "it's our honeymoon..i want something romantic"  "i know..but i don't wanna leave June with our parents..what about some Caribbean island?"  she smiles  "you're right.June has to come with us..we're three now.."  i hold her hand,nodding and smiling.the woman turns to us  "so,do i have to find some holiday village with big houses near the ocean?"   i nod  "yes,please". as the woman starts talking about this dream place,June interrupts her,mumbling something in her own language..the woman looks at us,irritated..i contain a laugh,biting my lip. "as i was saying..."  another interruption from my daughter  "hey,sssh baby"  i tell,caressing her back.

fifteen minutes later,we're smiling because we found the right place for our honeymoon.  "i wish you all the fun..and that your daughter will allow you to spend a romantic time together"  the woman says,shaking our hands  "don't worry about this..we love our child.she's the best thing we ever made"  i tell her.as we get in the car,Cari turns to me with a smile  "everyday she looks at you more and more.."  "to you too,my love..she wants attention all the time"  i reply,putting my seatbelt on.i start driving...she types something on her phone..i raise my eyebrows..since i started doing what i'm doing i became even more jealous..isn't it ironic?i'm just afraid that she has secrets.i'm stressing her so much with this paranoid stuff..having a baby is not easy,even though our daughter is the sweetest and prettiest baby on earth..but i'm not making things easier with this absurd fear..i bite my cheek from inside my mouth,to avoid asking her what she's doing.i turn the radio on,to distract me.we're stuck in the traffic now...i start snorting,tapping nervously my fingers on the steering..she's always on the phone..i sigh loudly  "Cari,what are you doing?"  "mmm?"  "it's been since we left the travel agency that you're on your phone"  she looks at me  "and so?"  i snort,turning to the street.when the car before me stops,i talk again  "can you tell me what you're doing?"  she lowers the phone and looks at me  "are you serious Shannon?you're so mysterious in this period..you never tell me what you do.i'm curious...what do you do when you go out without us?"  her eyes are analyzing every part of my face..i try my best to control my emotions...this woman knows me too well.  "i go out with Jess and work,most of the time"  i tell,turning to the street..i can feel her gaze on me  "i choose to trust you because i love you Shannon.try to do the same with me"...holy moly....she's so fucking right and i'm so fucking wrong...in every way.