Astral Convergences

Everything happens in June

C pov

a few days earlier

"i'm pregnant"  i sit on Natalie's bed,realizing that she's right. "how didn't we notice?"  "you've been on tour..but,honestly i don't know how Shannon didn't notice"  i look at her  "what are you implying?"  "maybe she stopped giving you all the attention she used to give you before"  i sigh  "you don't know anything about our relationship.we have a child and we're very busy.also,i've always been curvy.i can't blame her"  "okay,okay.i didn't mean to make you angry.i'm sorry..."  she takes a deep breath,almost on the verge of tears  "it's just that..it's not easy to handle that part". my heart aches..she's heartbroken..i hold her hand  "listen..you are a special person to me.don't forget it"  she gives me a sad smile  "but it's not enough"  "you're beautiful.really..i've always thought that.everyone can see that you're attractive"  she glares at me..we exchange an intense look..she approaches her face to mine..my heart is beating like crazy..what?she rests her head against mine,closing her eyes..my hands are sweating and i feel terrified  "umm..i'm gonna go"  i tell her..she opens her eyes and i hate her..i feel naked when she looks at me like this.. "i'm sorry,Cari."  "don't be..you told me you love me,it's not exactly a declaration of war"  i say,chuckling..she smirks  "you're gonna remind me this everytime you'll try to get anything for me,isn't it?"  "totally"  i smile widely,exiting the room.

i enter my room,sighing..i just discovered that my art director is in love with me and that maybe i'm pregnant.it's been a crazy night..i wash my face and then i look into the mirror..my heart starts beating like crazy..am i pregnant?i'm not worried about Shannon's reaction this time 'cause i know that she wants other babies but..isn't it too early?i take a look at my bump..i get emotional,thinking that my second child could be there.i search into my little bag,to find the test..i wasn't planning to have a baby but i'm married and i have a pretty intense sex life so i knew it could've happened.i grab the pregnancy test  "here we are,again".

i'm waiting,sitting on this bed,alone... "come on,Cari.you're a grown woman". i look at the test and my heart jumps out of my chest...tears stream down my cheeks..Shannon and i will have another baby.i try to repress my sobs,covering my mouth with my hand, but the cry is too intense.i'm mostly crying 'cause i'm picturing Shannon's face..another little human with her eyes..oh,i love her so much..i wanna scream.my phone buzzes..it's her..i have to contain myself 'cause i deserve to see and live her reaction.i read her text:

loveofmylife: June and i are fighting Captain Crocodile to get the unicorn back.

obviously, there's a picture of them..Shannon is inside the playpen with June who's focused on her stuffed animals.i melt even more..we're gonna have another baby..my little princess will have a sibling.

I put down the phone 'cause the temptation is too strong.i wanna call my mom or Alex..but i can't..my wife has to be the first.i lay on the bed,smiling..i'm gonna be a mom,again..i can't believe my life at the moment.i'm in London for my tour and i just found out that i'm pregnant.i type a reply to Shannon: "i love you so much,you have no idea.i miss you.i'd like to be with my girls,right now". she sends me a video where June makes weird sounds with her mouth and i die of love..

i'm laying on the bed,trying to fall asleep,but it's really hard,even though i'm tired.my phone buzzes and i take it,smiling.me and Shannon are sending each other romantic texts..

Nat: i'm really sorry.just wanna let you know that i'm here for you.wanna go to a doctor,tomorrow?

i smile..i can't be mad at her..also,what was that moment,earlier??i put my hand on the bump,sighing: "you have nothing to be sorry for.and yes..i'll be very happy to see a doctor.just,don't tell anyone where we're going"