Astral Convergences

Forever

C pov

I open my eyes in confusion..the TV is on...i'm laying on the couch..and it's evening  "fuck...i fell asleep"  i yawn and sit up..i go to the bathroom..Shannon is not at home..i wash my face and come back in the living room,to call her on the phone..but something captures my attention..a buzz coming from our bedroom..her phone is on the nightstand..i take it..there's a text: "thank you for the talk..sometimes it's really hard being away from you..but i love you.have a good day baby"  no..maybe i didn't read well..let's try this again..it's an unknown number..my heart starts beating faster... "i love you"  "baby"   the more i look at this text the more i can't breathe.. "no Cari..you can't feel bad..."  i put my hands on the bump but my breath is heavy...the air is going away..my hands are shaking and tears are rolling down my cheeks due to the thought that i'm hurting my baby..i walk as i can to the living room and fortunately someone knocks on the door..a worried Alex comes inside  "Cari,what's going on?"  i'm sobbing now  "take me to the hospital"  she wraps her arms around my shoulders and leads me to the elevator  "okay calm down Cari..please calm down"  i try to breathe slowly but i feel a terrible pain to my stomach..Alex takes her car and pulls me inside of it..i don't remember the ride because i passed out.

i wake up in a hospital bed.. "jesus christ Cari..you scared the shit out of me"  Alex tells me  "i'm sorry..i didn't want to worry you"  she sighs  "we're lucky that i was here..about this..where the fuck is your girlfriend?i tried to call her but she doesn't pick up"  the anxiety comes back  "i..i don't know..she..she forgot her phone at home"  "shit..you're always on the clouds"  my lips are shaking,she notices and holds my hand  "hey sis..what's going on?are you scared for the baby?"  i nod..she hugs me  "the doctor is coming back..but...i think the baby is fine"  i cry  "i didn't wanna hurt her...i'm a bad mother..i had to be stronger"  "hey it's okay...these things happen..it's not your fault"  i pull away  "it is..i'm so anxious"  she raises her eyebrows..when i'm about to tell her everything the doctor steps in the room  "good evening miss Fletcher..we checked you..and the baby...you're both fine"  i sigh loudly,he continues  "just..try to rest and lead a quiet life"  i nod and look at Alex  "can you call Shannon?"  she nods and pulls out her phone..after a couple of minutes she speaks  "finally....she's here with me...first of all, everything is alright...yeah...we're at the hospital..ok,bye"  she looks at me  "she's coming..she was super worried..now,can you tell me what happened?"  "i had a panic attack"  she questions me with her eyes  "since i'm pregnant i'm more anxious..and in the last month i started thinking that..i'm not enough for Shannon"  "ok,you're dumb.."  "my body changed and i can't give her all the attention i used to give her..maybe..she found how to have fun"  "no..i don't wanna hear this bullshit..she's Carisexual..she doesn't look at any woman..you must be blind not to see it"  i start crying again  "i love her so much and i'm terrified that she could want more"  "you are everything to her..how can you not get it?"  "i found a text..someone who calls her baby"   "and so?maybe it's just a friend"   i hug her again  "i don't know...but i want her now..where's she?i want Shannon..please.."  i can't stop crying  "Cari please..the doctor just told you to be quiet..do it for June.."  the thought of my daughter calms me down a little. ten minutes later i'm calmer..i hear someone speaking loudly in the hallway  "no...i don't give a fuck..my girlfriend is pregnant..she needs me"   when i see Shannon's face,i get emotional again..she runs to me and hugs me   "what happened babygirl?my heart is beating so fast" i pull away to kiss her..the contact with her mouth is like a breath of fresh air for me..now,my world is full and my lungs are working..when we pull away i see that her eyes are red,i bite my lips with regret..i made her worry..she holds my hands  "is the baby ok?"  i nod,she kisses my forehead  "i wasn't there.i can't forgive myself.."  "no,baby..it's all my fault"  i reply  "how can it be your fault?it's mine..i was buying something to eat but i forgot the phone"   Alex comes out of the room to give us privacy  "i read a text..on your phone..and the anxiety made the rest"  she sighs,closing her eyes  "i think you read Vanessa's text..she changed number..we talked while you were asleep..it's my fault..i should have put the name on the contact"  i put my hands on her arms  "it's mine...i was about to hurt our baby"  i finish the sentence crying...she hugs me tight  "sssshh...stop baby...i love you...our baby is fine.."  she pulls away and touches my chin  "now,let's go home..i wanna cuddle in the couch or in the bed.."  i smile through the tears  "also...i bought a lot of snacks..you asked for chips and chocolate and i took 'em"  "you're incredible..i'm so lucky"  she smiles  "i think you have to sign some papers..i can't, yet..but soon,i'll be able to sign for you"  i smile widely at the thought of our wedding   "and vice versa..you won't be free to do anything without me knowing it"  she kisses me  "and you are happy about this..you're finally framing me"  i wrap my arms around her neck,looking at her in adoration  "i had my ways"  she gives me a passionate kiss before pulling me up  "come on..let's go home".