Astral Convergences

Crazy in love

C pov

i wake up feeling a bit of nausea..Shannon is still sleeping..i turn around to check the clock..it's 5 a.m. i raise my eyebrows...June is calm..maybe too much..i get up to go to the bathroom.i wash my face and go back to bed..my head is spinning..i lie down and take a deep breath..maybe it's too early and i have nausea 'cause i need to rest..i close my eyes,hoping that i'll feel better in a few hours.

i feel kisses on my cheeks..i open my eyes and smile, seeing the beautiful view in front of me..Shannon has brought me breakfast  "good morning princess"  i sit up,leaning on the headboard  "good morning Shan baby". she sits next to me..i look at the food  "mmm..croissants..i love you"  "i want the best for my baby". we start eating..i look at her,feeling a little insecure..we fought a few days ago because of the trip to New York

flashback:

"Cari i can't believe you..you need to rest!"  "i can't do anything about it...and i feel good..i can go to New York and do the last things for the album"  she shakes her head  "you are pregnant..do you understand this?"  "yeah..i'm pregnant..i'm not ill..you already knew i had to finish the work"  "i feel impotent.."  i walk to her  "babe...you have to trust me..i'm okay..i can do it"   i put my hands on her face and she calms down  "okay..but if you'll get stressed i will drag you here with my hands"  i kiss her  "okay..i love you"  i look at her,waiting for her response,but she doesn't say a word.. "Shan...don't you love me?"  she looks down  "maybe"  "say it"   "why?"  "say it"  i look straight into her  eyes  "i love you"  "okay...don't ever do it again".

i know she's worried but i have to work.when we finish,she gets up  "okay,i'm taking this to the kitchen..then..we'll take a shower,okay?don't move."  i smile  "okay" i close my eyes for a moment and my baby moves.... "good morning to you too"  Shannon comes in, smiling  "okay..now,this lil' family has to take a shower..are you ready?" she gives me her hand and i grab it to stand up..she kisses the bump and we walk, hand in hand, to the bathroom.i take off my bra and wait for her to get undressed to help me with the panties.then we step inside the shower..i relax under the hot water..then,i let her soap me up..i feel butterflies in my stomach with every touch..even my daughter is happy when her mama massages the bump. "okay..my babies had a lot of cuddles...now i have to dry you" she helps me get out and wraps me in a towel,hugging me with her arms..i look at her in the sweetest way possible as she dries me and helps me with the clothes..she squeezes my ass and my boobs in the process making me laugh  "you're shameless..neither in front of a pregnant woman you stop being an horny teenager"  "hey..you're my pregnant woman" i laugh giving her a kiss.

after Shannon packed up,we sit to have lunch.in a couple of hours,we have our flight..she looks at me, smiling  "how you feel?"  "good.Shannon don't worry" she nods but i can tell she's not okay,so i put my hand over hers  "baby..you're gonna be with me..plus,we'll have Erose,John,Nina,your sister..we're gonna be fine"  she sighs  "i know..but i have this feeling..i don't know why..it's that after the last time...when you passed out...i fear anything.."  "i know but i can't be on the bed all day"  "you're right..i'll try to calm down" i kiss her cheek,leaving her the stain of my lipstick  "marked.."  "i'll wash my face"  "nooo"  i complain in my baby voice  "Cari..i can't go around with your lipstick on my face"  she laughs  "why not?i want to make it clear to everyone that you're mine"  "everybody knows"  "how?"  "the ring...and the bump..."  "but..i want a sign on you"  she gets closer to me  "in a few months i'll have the most remarkable sign on my finger" she places her lips on mine,i wrap her neck with my arms,deepening the kiss  "mmm..baby...this kiss was..hot"  "i know..come here" i put my lips on hers,slipping my tongue inside her mouth..she pulls away  "mm..baby..we have to go..John is going to the airport..we're gonna be late"  i snort  "okay..i can't wait to give birth..when June will be born,we'll have a week alone..to have wild sex"  she laughs  "babe..when June will be born,we're gonna be with her all the time..but i like your idea"  "you're not helping, Shanbee..my hormones are killing me"  "you're not the only one"  i raise my eyebrows  "are you sexually frustrated?"  "no..it's that i can't do all the things i used to do..but it's normal..now,let's go baby,it's late" i stand up confused,feeling a little guilty.