Astral Convergences

At all costs

S pov

I open my eyes... I woke up ten minutes ago... I was thinking about the tour. she said that everything's gonna be okay...that the tour will be short..but, I feel this weird sensation in my heart. I turn around..she's sleeping...god, she's so beautiful... I don't know how I should live without her. as the alarm starts ringing, I turn it off...and sit on the bed...she moves a little. I smile for her beauty and then get up.

"good morning babies" I say in my baby voice, entering the nursery. "mommy..."  June is standing on her feet, with open arms  "good morning, my love". I greet her with a kiss and then grab my baby boy who whines and presses his eyes... I kiss his cheek, smiling  "it's breakfast time, little monsters". "Shannon..."  my wife steps inside, wearing my large white shirt, rubbing her eyes  "good morning, princess"  "why didn't you wake me up?"  she complains  "I was about to reach you with these beauties"  she smiles, kissing Gary  "breakfast in bed?"  "why not?"  i reply. she kisses me and then grabs and kisses June.

we're sitting on our bed, with our babies on us. little Gary is having his breakfast, sucking the milk from my wife's breast. June is getting dirty, of course, introducing her fingers inside the marmalade jar..i chuckle  "you're a piggy"... Cari whines  "oh nooo...all of her pajamas are dirty..princess, don't put your fingers inside the jar"....the little girl smiles widely, with her mouth full of jam. my wife closes her eyes, giggling  "i can't with her". i devour my daughter's cheek  "you're an adorable piggy...."  "piggy!piggy!"  the baby repeats, jumping. when Gary's done, i grab him...Cari kisses me  "thank you, Shanbee". 

I'm drinking my cup of coffee...Cari is eating...June touches Gary's cheek, drawing his attention  "Gay...love you"  the boy smiles widely....we melt.... "awwww....i can't....she's so sweet"  i say, crying. Cari bites her lips, trying to stop the tears. i pull her towards me  "we made two angels"  she says, wiping her tears off  "mommy...good?"  our little princess asks us... I smile, cupping her cheeks  "yeah, baby. you're precious". she stands up with my help and goes to Cari  "mom...no cry". she places a tender kiss upon my wife's cheek who grabs her legs and starts kissing our baby  "you're mommy's angel, aren't you?".

we're just laying on our bed, staring at our incredible kids. Cari's head is placed on my shoulder...i'm caressing her hair...she grabs my free hand and starts grazing my skin. "how can you leave us?" I ask her...she turns her head to look at me  "what do you mean?"  "i mean, for the tour"  "Shannon..it will be only for two weeks"  "you'll go in Europe..Gary needs you. June needs you...and i need you"  "I know, baby. I need you as well.. I'm gonna call you everyday, I promise". I sigh  "it's not the same thing..he's so young... he needs his mom". she touches the boy's face without answering. "Cari...are you okay?" I ask her a few minutes later... she's crying, shaking her head  "I feel guilty.. I don't wanna leave him". shit...i'm a terrible wife...but at the same time, i wanna keep her here. she sighs, getting up. "Car.."  i start but my phone cuts me off...  "it's Rachel, i have to answer". she grabs June, exiting the room.

Shannon: yes...

Rachel: oh.. good morning to you, too

S: I'm sorry...it's not the best time, now

R: actually, you should see something

S: i can't, now

R: Shannon, there's a letter from a lawyer for you

i sit up

S: from who?

R: from Kelly. do you remember of her?

S: Kelly? the blonde model?

R: yes. come soon

S: i'm on my way.