Astral Convergences

"There's nothing in this world that I love more than you"

S pov

me,Cari and her management have landed in Tennessee for the Bonnaroo festival.after we've settled in our hotel rooms,me and my girlfriend go to the festival area.my phone buzzes and I look who it is,Cari takes it off of my hand   "hey!"  she looks at me raising her eyebrows  "what?"  "babe...you ripped it from my hands"  "and so?"  "whatever...read the text" "it's Cammie..they are here...do you wanna meet them?"  "yes..ask her where they are exactly"  she types the text and we wait for Cammie's answer.when we have the instructions,we move to meet our friends.  "Shannon!"  I recognize Kara's voice so I turn around to see her...we walk to them  "hi"  we greet and hug  "how you doing?you're in great shape"  Cammie says to Cari  "thank you..you're beautiful as always"  yeah,this is a little bit weird..my ex and my girlfriend complimenting each other..but I guess it's a lesbian thing,no competition between girls..well,it's not a general rule but it's more likely that two exes of mine end up in bed rather than fight.... "Shannon,are you okay?"  Cari brings me back to reality  "yes...I was thinking strange things..."  "what things?"  "promiscuity in our environment"   she stares into my eyes  "you're weird".  "okay ladies let's go"  Kara leads the group into the crowd to go eating..we choose a booth who makes hot dogs  "babe...I'm hungry...I can't wait all these people"  Cari complains about the line   "do you want to go to another booth?"   I suggest   "I don't know....I'm so hungry that I can't move"  "come on,be patient, baby"  she sighs...maybe she's nervous for her performance because she never acts like this.after we ate,we relax on the lawn..I'm laying on the mat,enjoying the sun on my face...Cari is sitting next to me,with the phone in her hands...I look at Kara and Cammie...they're cuddling..I sigh...I don't like when Cari is on her phone so much.so I sit up and place my lips on her neck..i continue kissing her..my hands are on her waist  "babe..why don't you put that down?"    I say gently   "Shannon stop..you're being annoying"  our friends turn to look at us and I pull away embarrassed.I stand up  "where are you going?"  she asks impatiently  "I don't know..see you later"  I walk away as fast as I can..today she's in a really bad mood and I can't understand why.

after two hours,I come back calmer..she's with her bandmates,I greet them,then I look at Cari  "are you ready to go to the hotel?"  she nods.we're in our room...I keep looking at her..she's changing...her mood seems the same as earlier but I feel the need to clarify...I sit next to her  "babe...do you have a bad mood for...Cammie?are you jealous?"   she sighs   "no Shannon...you're on me...all the time..it's you,not Cammie.."   my eyes go wide...I don't know what to say   "are you serious?"  "look...I'm tired..tomorrow I'm gonna perform and I need to rest.."  "but...what did I do?"  "nothing Shannon...can we sleep?"  "don't you wanna eat?"   "no..my stomach is closed..that hot dog left me a bad taste"  "do what you want...I'm going to eat"   I don't even bother to kiss her before I exit the room.

it's my third beer what I'm drinking,sitting alone in this bar..is it gonna be like that our life?everytime we'll argue,she'll go to sleep while i'll go to a bar?  "hey kid...you can't drink your problems away..."  I turn at my right to see who's speaking..a man,on his fifties,drinking a glass of something..I don't know... "I tried but my real problems are sleeping in an hotel room..without me..."    he sits on a stool close to me   "women problems are the worse"   I nod  "totally.."  "your wife?"  "yes...she said I'm on her all the time..maybe I should give her some space"  "nah..when a woman needs space,it means just one thing..an affair"  I take a large sip of my beer   "she loves me...she's a good person,I don't think she-"  "one thing is for sure..something's going on inside of her..if a girl like you is here,drinking,there's something"  maybe he's right..the anxiety is getting over me..I finish my bottle and order another.I take the beer and get out of the bar..I need air...I can't lose her..no,no...the thought of my life without her scares me..it's simply impossible.some tears leave my eyes...I finish the bottle right after..I'm a mess...I don't want her to see me like this.I take my phone...no texts or calls from her...I throw the bottle against the ground..I don't know what to do..I hate her...but I love her...too much...I look at my reflection in a shop window and I try to steady my breath..when I get my shit together,I walk back to our hotel.I open the door,trying not to make any sound...the room is dark...I stare at her...she's sleeping...I think for a moment if she would cheat on me,what would i do?right now,looking at her,so beautiful,I can tell for sure that I'd forgive her...I start undressing,thinking that I have no choice anymore...she has the absolute power.