Astral Convergences

Patience is the virtue of the strong

C pov

this tour is giving me new awareness.i'm discovering things about me,like the strength..i'm so much stronger than the past.meet the people and sing my songs around the nation is filling my soul.this is what i wanna do for the rest of my life.i'm growing up as a person too.i feel more confident and more proud of who i am.now,i think my little defects show my uniqueness.make music is so therapeutic...you vent your emotions in a song and then you are more open about other emotions.this is what happened to me.and this is how a song was born:

after i met Shannon in Philadelphia,i feel a huge desire...i wanna be with her..i need her body,i need her hands,i need her kisses.we see each other on facetime but it's not enough.i take my phone to watch our photos...god,i miss her so bad...scrolling through my album i find the photos i took while she was asleep...naked....i bite my lip....my hand is getting down...my breath is becoming heavy and irregular..when i reach my centre,i think of her...her hands on me...her mouth..her body.... i start whispering  "Shannon....". i wanna hear her voice...i call her:her gorgeous smile is the first thing i see

S: babe...hi!

i bite my lip

C: Shanbee...

my tone is low and persuasive

S: umm...Cari...what are you doing?where are you?

C: i'm in the hotel room..alone..and you?

i look at her with my eyes on fire

S: um...me too

then i lower my phone,showing my naked chest

C: they miss you

S: oh my god Cari...do you wanna kill me?

C: i was watching your photos...and i got so turned on

she sighs loudly

C: i miss you...i miss your hands on me

S: you're so beautiful babe...i'm breathless

that moment and that feeling was an ispiration to write a song..i started to pull out some lyrics and a melody..then i told my idea to my co-authors and the song,slowly,came out.

and now,here i am,ready to sing it in front of the people in LA.my tour is ending and i'm sad..but i'm happy also because i'll see Shannon.i get on stage..the crowd screams...i'm nervous..singing in front of people i know is harder...i see my friends...the guitar plays the first notes and all the tension vanishes...after the first chorus of Over my head,i see Amy,holding her phone with a smiling Shannon on the screen...when we see each other the biggest smile appears on our face..i sing for her...and this is the moment i realized that everything i do,i do it for us.she's everything..but for real..not just in a romantic way,she's the other half of my person,my rock,the life savior when i'm drowning.

end of the month

i released the video for You should talk and a photoshoot i made for Playboy.Shannon's reaction was everything..she told me that i have to be scared  to be alone with her.we met three times during our tours..the last time was in Orlando,at Disney World.she had a day off.we had sex that night 'cause we couldn't do it anymore...i mean...almost a month without sex is hard.now,i'm reaching her in San Francisco.it's our second Halloween together and i'm a little nervous 'cause i wanna be perfect for her.i made a manicure and shaved my body.then i chose a sexy top and made my makeup.red light lipstick 'cause i wanna drive her crazy.everything is ready,so i take the plane to San Francisco.